PRAYER
Perhaps as a child you had the chicken pox
and your mother, to soothe you in your fever
or to help you fall asleep, came into your room
and read to you from some favorite book,
Charlotte’s Web or Little House on the Prairie,
a long story that she quietly took you through
until your eyes became magnets for your shuttering
lids and she saw your breathing go slow. And then
she read on, this time silently and to herself,
not because she didn’t know the story,
it seemed to her that there had never been a time
when she didn’t know this story—the young girl
and her benevolence, the young girl in her sod house—
but because she did not yet want to leave your side
though she knew there was nothing more
she could do for you. And you, not asleep but simply weak,
listened to her turn the pages, still feeling
the lamp warm against one cheek, knowing the shape
of the rocking chair’s shadow as it slid across
your chest. So that now, these many years later,
when you are clenched in the damp fist of a hospital bed,
or signing the papers that say you won’t love him anymore,
when you are bent at your son’s gravesite or haunted
by a war that makes you wake with the gun
cocked in your hand, you would like to believe
that such generosity comes from God, too,
who now, when you have the strength to ask, might begin
the story again, just as your mother would,
from the place where you have both left off.
–from Rattle #28, Winter 2007








July 24th, 2008 at 11:34 am
This is a beautiful poem, both in terms of imagery and the profound idea it conveys. Heartbreaking and made me miss being read to.
July 25th, 2008 at 3:14 pm
Beautiful poem – loved where it took me and the quiet confidence within it.
Thanks
July 25th, 2008 at 8:20 pm
“Perhaps as a child…”
Or perhaps not – perhaps you didn’t have an experience like this as a child with a parent. So, I can admire the beautiful writing (“until your eyes became magnets for your shuttering
lids” – phenomenal!) and yet at the same time, feel a distance from the experience described in the poem…and then the little nagging sense that the references to “Charlotte’s Web” and “Little House on the Prairie,” might spring open upon rereading this poem again a few months from now, and completely up-end the interpretation I have of it now…and then also, at the end, I wonder, how would the poem be different if the poet had chosen to use “Goddess” instead of “God” – I know, I’ve seen the bumper stickers (God Is Coming And Is She Pissed), “god” can be female, male, both, neither – just had a complicated reaction to this admittedly beautiful poem – I don’t deny it!
July 27th, 2008 at 12:26 am
Anoth R. Poet ~ There’s a good article by Phyllis Trible called “Depatriarchalizing in Biblical Interpretation” you might find worthwhile. Feminist biblical hermeneutics is actually one of my areas of academic focus, so I know something about this. Your point is well made. I supposed I hadn’t automatically considered God as male or female. The author is drawing a parallel with a maternal image, so the image for me was similarly maternal. One might suggest that an automatical impression of “God” as male comes from androcentric enculturation, rather than the author’s intent. Beware the pitfalls of eisegesis
How’s that for complicated? At any rate, I think the statement made here is that a faith relationship remains even when one has many reasons to stop believing. For God to “begin the story again from the place you both left off,” at least for me, implies that the Deity is always available when one chooses to approach it in a fresh way, rather than with preconceived notions or old animosity. I suspect Thomas Carlyle would have liked this poem very much.
October 6th, 2008 at 4:09 am
Çäðàâñòâóéòå, áûëî î÷åíüïðèêîëüíî âàñ ïî÷èòàòü. òîëüêî âîò îäíîïëîõî Ñïàìåðû äîñòàëè, ó ìåíÿ ó ñàìîãî åñòü ñòðàíè÷êà òàê è íà ïðåìîäåðàöèþ ñòàâèòü âñå ïîñòûíå äåëî, à âîò êàïò÷ó íèêàê íå ìîãó óñòàíîâèòü, íå ïîëó÷àåòñÿ…