December 21, 2024

Julie Price Pinkerton

WHAT IS MY LIFE ABOUT?

This naked, lonely question
is still simmering in a crock pot
on the counter of a beach bungalow
 
where no one lives. But if you like,
I can show you some examples of what falls
out of my life when it’s whacked like a piñata:
 
My friend Emily reminisces about the cat
she used to have, and still misses.
“Clearly, Pippin and I were telepathic.”
 
In my collection of very bad Christmas decorations
there is a cloisonné manger scene with a baby Jesus
who has a snout like a piglet.
 
I have been criticized for always looking downward
when I walk. But in only five decades I have found enough
coins to sink a rowboat.
 
If I were a household object I would insist
on being a gooseneck lamp or the yarn mane
of a toy horse.
 
Most of my prayers are like drive-by shootings.
Please help me. Please save her. Thank you
for the parking spot.
 

from Rattle #45, Fall 2014
Tribute to Poets of Faith

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Julie Price Pinkerton: “I am a poet of faith. I’ve never written that sentence before. I was raised in a Baptist church on a gravel road on the outskirts of Brazil, Indiana. All of Brazil, Indiana, is kind of an outskirt. The church of my childhood was weird and toxic. Long story. At the center of it: Our pastor’s son (who became a pastor himself) was a pedophile. Nobody knew this until many years later, but something was off there, and I could tell. I hated going there. I stuck with my faith, though. Went to a really small Methodist college, the University of Evansville. A battering ram hit my faith in God when I was a freshman and our school’s entire basketball team was killed in a plane crash. Among the lost was the boy I had just started dating. But faith was still there, flailing. Post-college adult stuff. Marriage, divorce, the switching of churches, the switching of denominations (within Christianity), jobs, cities, marriage again, and hobbling along with my belief in God, which never leaves, but baffles me repeatedly like a train I can hear blaring somewhere in the woods but I cannot find the tracks. I’m 54 now. And Christ is still the only thing that makes sense to me. My atheist friends find this quaint. That’s OK.”

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December 20, 2024

C. Wade Bentley

STORYTELLING

The morning they saw the body in the river
on the way to school was also the day Jessica
said how she’d known all along that Seth
was gay and she was perfectly fine with it
and Kaylie said well me too but if you knew
why didn’t you say something before we went out
for two months but just before Jessica could answer
was when Jared said what the hell? and pointed
down along the banks of the river where half hidden
in the grass was what they would soon know was the naked
body of a young woman maybe a few years older
than they were and where for a still and silent minute
they just looked at the way her hair had woven
itself into the weeds the way her head would nudge
gently against the shore and then retreat
how the little ripples in this quiet section of water
would splash onto her right hip all purple and grey
shiny and taut with a look on her face
and her wide eyes that said nothing at all
that said I have no opinion I will have nothing to say
on that matter and it’s no use waiting for it you will
tell the police your story now and play it up big
for your mates at school later but you won’t hear it
from me that story that love story that fantasy
I had hoped to tell had begun to tell has now moved
to mid-stream and will be out to sea sooner or later
where old couples who are even now walking
along the shore will pause from time to time
their faces into the wind, listening.

from Rattle #40, Summer 2013

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C. Wade Bentley: “There are three things I can count on to make me happy: playing with my grandsons, hiking in the mountains, and writing poetry. Even when the end result of my poetic effort is crap—as it often is—I am never quite so happy as when lost and wallowing in the mud of a possible poem, trying to write my way out. And when the alchemy actually works, that’s a bonus. That’s magic.” (web)

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December 19, 2024

Paradigm Shift by Morgan Reed, abstract painting of people walking in the rain with umbrellas

Image: “Paradigm Shift” by Morgan Reed. “My New Dress” was written by Sarah Carleton for Rattle’s Ekphrastic Challenge, November 2024, and selected as the Artist’s Choice.

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Sarah Carleton

MY NEW DRESS

with bodice and gathered sleeves
kicks up a gust of colors.
Here I come, a freshly ironed wave
 
that scrubs the morning clean,
skirt swinging beneath a parasol,
waistline the fulcrum cotton rustles
 
around on a tropical day stitched
with yellow piping and white petals,
washed in turquoise seawater,
 
dabbed with terra cotta, edged in pink,
drenched in lavender—I stroll
the market like a paint-splashed
 
palette, not a woman but women,
plural, a flock, each of me
so dazzling all you see is sunshine.
 

from Ekphrastic Challenge
November 2024, Artist’s Choice

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Comment from the artist, Morgan Reed: “What a difficult decision! There were many interesting and imaginative poems submitted, including a few that were remarkably parallel to my own thoughts in making the painting. ‘My New Dress’ takes the image in a different direction, but in the end, I was charmed by its freshness, sensory joy, and closing flourish.”

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December 18, 2024

Scott Withiam

BIRD IN A FOREST

The first time my father struck my mother,
I didn’t see it happen, but heard a sound
I could only equate with one potato picked
then thrown to a harvested pile of them.
And then I saw the place my mother had been
 
standing, in the same place another time,
near the kitchen stove, while cooking breakfast
for the whole family, and her housecoat caught
fire, though then, more a whoosh, in which
those tiny terrycloth loops snapped
 
like pine needles igniting one to another
at breakneck speed. My father grabbed
the porcelain baking dish soaking in the sink,
and doused the fire, at the same time screaming,
“Your own damn fault. You’re not
 
paying attention!” as in, after the fire
extinguished, the soaked black smudge
on her housecoat was a destroyed forest.
And the trees still sighing hidden
in both parents saying, “That could have been
 
so much worse.” Later, I came back
to my mother’s new satin pink housecoat,
the rustle of it, as it fell from her
knocked out of it, as hearing then spotting
a bird in that forest as a sign of life
 
returning, not her scrambling back
into the housecoat and off the floor
faster than any flame, but her
as the loose string found and flown
into the living room, feathered
 
into the nest of my father’s leather
recliner. That’s because I had gone to her
there, kept calling “Mom!” “Mother?”
but she didn’t move, stared silent
for a long time, as if somebody
 
seated, growing more and more
comfortable before a fire,
though able, finally, to call back,
“I don’t want you here, ever.”
 

from Rattle #85, Fall 2024

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Scott Withiam: “I wish this was one of those poems about which I could say, ‘It wrote itself.’ That would nicely distance me from any uncomfortable personal associations with the incidents portrayed in the poem, and with poems I write that I am often too quick to judge as self-absorbed therapy poems and then drop before finishing. I long knew, however, that my father had struck my mother more than once, and increasingly disturbing, the longer this remained buried the incidents turned insignificant, minor. Too much of that (increasingly disturbing, the longer this remained buried the incidents turned insignificant, minor) going on these days. The imagery poured out as soon as I went back to that childhood kitchen, but it, and the various scenes found in the poem, came out disjointed. Much like the feeling after trauma or reasoning with trauma or the nature of any recovery, at any level, I soon thought, ‘so maybe use that in the poem.’ The images, meanwhile, felt alive with possible meanings or directions and seemed to, in subsequent drafts, begin to fit within shifts, or sometimes both shift and image worked together, heightened each other. Those are the highlights of how this poem seemed to come together, and that description may sound as confusing as the poem started out. Anyway, finished, I thought the poem came close in its portrayal of the confused sense of a helpless witness and the hidden magnitude of destruction to ourselves and others.”

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December 17, 2024

Denise Duhamel

POEM IN WHICH I PURSUED MY DREAM OF DOING STAND-UP

When articles I read in 1980 demanded
a woman comic make fun of her appearance,
I went for it. I embraced my fat because John Waters
thought fat was hilarious. In fact, I ate so much
I doubled my size and wore small, unflattering
T-shirts to highlight my stomach rolls. I wasn’t afraid
to be raunchy or gross. I even farted
on stage, becoming a caricature of everything ugly
I dreaded inside me. I teased my frizzy hair to make it
even frizzier. I took my cues from Joan Rivers
and Phyllis Diller—On my honeymoon I put on
a peekaboo blouse. My husband peeked and booed.
I tried to repel men as much as possible
with my awesome, non-conforming physicality.
I didn’t care if I embarrassed my family.
I didn’t care anymore about diets or dates.
I ate whole cakes and didn’t even think
about throwing them up. I went to late night
open mics, wisecracking through the jeers and booing
until audiences got used to me. I took their abuse,
gave it right back. I wore down the drunks and soon
they were laughing, even snorting sometimes.
Though still controversial, I was on the cover
of Paper and Ms. while The Golden Girls
made its TV debut. By the time Roseanne Barr
came around, I’d already taken all up the space
in that roly-poly lane. I let her open for me anyway.
At the end of each of my Comedy Central specials,
I would invite her back into the spotlight
and we’d bump our humongous bellies.
Roseanne grew bored. She was a deep thinker,
growing more profound with each gig.
When Jane Austen came back in vogue
with the movies Clueless and Sense and Sensibility,
I started my own production company
and hired so many women—even skinny
pretty comics, ones I never imagined
could break through. My wide ass opened wide
doors for everyone. Finally I had boyfriends,
handsome and loyal and attracted to my big fat
bank account. But by the time Beyoncé reunited
with Destiny’s Child for the Super Bowl halftime,
my overeating and slovenly ways caught up
with me. When I had bypass surgery and lost
two hundred pounds, I knew my career in comedy
was over. Fans called me a traitor and my latest
boyfriend lost interest too—no more drunken parties
and freezers stocked with Haagen-Dazs
and Tombstone pizzas. I had to pivot so I straightened
my hair and changed my name to give myself
a second act. Roseanne had just won the Pulitzer
for her verse. I put my efforts into becoming a minor poet.
 

from In Which
2024 Rattle Chapbook Prize Winner

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Denise Duhamel: “I started writing the poems from In Which after reading Emily Carr’s brilliant essay ‘Another World Is Not Only Possible, She Is on Her Way on a Quiet Day I Can Hear Her Breathing.’ (American Poetry Review, Volume 51, No. 3, May/June 2022) Carr borrows her title from Arundhati Roy, political activist and novelist. In her delightfully unconventional essay, Carr talks about rekindling intuition in poems, offering ‘a welcome antidote to whatever personal hell you, too, are in.’ Carr’s invitation to be unapologetic, even impolite, gave me new ways of entering my narratives. Soon I was imagining I was someone else completely. Or sometimes I looked back at my earlier self, at someone I no longer recognized.”

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December 16, 2024

Chase Twichell

SOON

When I say the word walk, or even spell it,
the dogs leap up with flailing tails.
Since they don’t understand the concept
of “later” or “soon,” I say it only
when I’m almost out the door.
 
Soon there will be no words for my slow
meanders in the woods in search of chanterelles,
while they run miles of scent trails,
nostrils flared, circling back to keep me in their ken.
No whistle even deaf old Nan can hear.
Just ash, scant handful of the world’s one body.
Soon—still in the future, for now.
 

from Rattle #36, Winter 2011
Tribute to Buddhist Poets

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Chase Twichell: “I have a very low tolerance for decoration in poems. And some people love it; they want to read pages and pages of how the everglades look in a storm and so on and so forth. But I increasingly am of the school or the belief that we don’t have very much time and poems should do their work fast and get out.” (web)

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December 15, 2024

Stuart Watson

BIG HEAD

They carried the big head
through the streets, detached
from its neck and its body
but spilling all its evil
everywhere they carried it,
puddles for the people
to splash their happy feet, its jaw
flopping open as they adjusted
the angle of the big head
and its weight, the tongue
lolling out (what tongues do)
and then retracting between
teeth stained brown by too much
smoking or lack of scrubbing
with Ajax like the bottom
of the toilet bowl, people
growing tired of putting up
with the big head one more
second, and falling away
and new people joining
the people working so hard
to keep the big head up above
their own heads, to keep it
where other people could see
what a truly big head it was
and how it was no longer
attached to heart and lungs
and any of the many cruelties
that lived inside what it was.
 

from Poets Respond

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Stuart Watson: “This poem was inspired by the image of joyous citizens of Damascus carrying the severed sculptural head of what I assume was once part of a statue of Bashar al-Assad. Nothing in all the coverage captured for me the essence of the story.”

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