January 5, 2015Battleground
It showed the War was as my father said:
boredom flanked by terror, a matter of keeping
low and not freezing. You wore your helmet
square, he said, not “at some stupid angle,
like that draft dodger Wayne,” who died
so photogenically in The Sands of Iwo Jima.
Those nights I heard shouts from the dark
of my parents’ room, he was back down
in his foxhole, barking orders, taking the fire
that followed him from France and Germany,
then slipped into the house, where it hunkered
in the rafters and thrived on ambush. We kept
our helmets on, my mother and I,
but there was no cover, and our helmets
always tilted. He’d lump us with the ones
he called “JohnDoes,” useless, lazy.
We needed to straighten up and fly right,
pick it up, chop chop, not get “nervous
in the service.” We’d duck down like G.I.s
where German snipers might be crouched
in haylofts, their breaths held for the clean shot.
“Bang,” my father said, “the dead went down,
some like dying swans, some like puppets
with their strings cut.” I wanted to hear more,
but he’d change the subject, talk about
the Pennant, the Cards’ shaky odds, how Musial
was worth the whole JohnDoe lot of them.
from #44 - Summer 2014