March 3, 2011Delta Flight 1152
After the first drink, you can be
what you’re not. It’s so easy, all you must do
is answer this man’s questions with truths
you’ve just invented–on my way to the annual meeting
of master magicians, or to a conference of physicists
or international bankers–and your life is enviable,
new. Tell him you’re sad because you’re on your way
to your sister’s wedding and you’re in love
with her fiancé. Wipe your eyes,
sigh, mention almost under your breath the baby
you had to give up, the job. You’re the one
who introduced them, you couldn’t stop yourself, he would come
to your desk at the office. How lonely he was,
how young. But if you reveal the afternoon
of lunch on the rooftop, how for you
it wasn’t enough, there’s certain danger
this man, his drink finished, ice diluted
in the bottom of his plastic cup, will lean too far
into your invented life. He’ll offer his handkerchief.
You’ll finger his embroidered initials. He’ll touch your arm,
hand you his card. His voice unsteady,
he’ll tell you to call him at home–you,
an only child on her way
to see the ocean for the first time. You, who have managed
to live a moral life, whose troubled heart has never
surrendered, now with your wild and dangerous
lies, you could turn toward this stranger
and open.
from #18 - Winter 2002