September 6, 2020Four Days After the Passing of Chadwick Boseman
FOUR DAYS AFTER THE PASSING OF CHADWICK BOSEMAN
My cousin’s baby was talking since she came out
the womb, she said to anyone who would stare
wide-eyed at the babbling, fleshy child resting
its head on her breasts. Sounds would burst
out of the baby’s mouth, dripping with milk
and saliva that rolled down her moving chin as
she perpetually narrated a story only she
could understand. I imagined that, overwhelmed
with sheer emotion, I might have returned to
the openness of infancy where my thoughts
would stand ready like toy soldiers and rush forth
at my command. Instead, like a fussing baby,
tears coil around my words, choking them into broken
sounds as I reach into the dark and slap blindly around
my mind searching for the most beautiful way to say
I love you to a stranger. Another black man is
dead. And, yes, the method is different but the
pain is the same. The 24-hour loop of telling
and retelling that the Panther has faded
away right before our eyes follows the rich
American tradition of spectacle-izing the gone
negro. But, for once, the pendulum of the universe
has swung the other way and the big, brown-skinned,
nappy-haired guy with a funny name could be the hero.
The children of the Continent can never forget the
pure joy, like sugar and honey rushing through our
veins, that a black savior in Hollywood, dripping
in royalty on the big screen, made us feel. Always one
to say save the casket love, here I am with flowers
for a man whose shadow never even crossed my own,
and there is no one here to open the door anymore.

from Poets Respond