January 7, 2012It Would Take
it would take a long time for me to love
you
I would see you thrown from that office and then
you would have to get a job a real
job a low job
something physical
something that broke your nails if not
your will
no more coffee from the company china your
famous red lipstick
on your famous white cup
I’d see you drink from styrofoam
like the rest of us
I’d strip you of your friends
you can stay in a cheap apartment for once
throw away your high heels no
keep those
and when you call me I can be very cruel I won’t
make promises
I’ll think about it
because it’s going to take time
you’re going to have to stop shaving your body
wash with plain soap
give up on the salon and the streaks
and blond highlights
and if there’s grey good
good
because I want you to suffer no that’s not
it
I want the opposite I want you to finally become
yourself you said you want to
feel I’ll show you how to feel
but first meet me halfway
meet me at the Powderhorn Park Library in South
Minneapolis and keep
your voice down
there are real people here
wear a scarf an old coat and come over here
between the shelves
where we can see the street
at night and the snow just begun to fall
put your arms around me
I’ll show you how to feel but first you must feel
yourself
first yourself and then me
from #37 - Summer 2012