May 31, 2013My Father Loves Me, He Loves Me
My father hugs me, and sweats
we go down one step
at a time
face to face, neck to neck
My hands under his arms
my left foot
then my right foot down
my face rests on his chest
then his right leg drifts, descends
the foot hesitant, his face clenched
A long rest, and then, his left floats
joins its best friend and
his face softens, less tense
One step of the twelve-step staircase done
Five minutes later we’ve bottomed
This is fun, I say
We look gay, he frowns, out of breath
and we both laugh, till his eyes grow wet
The two doors, inner and outer
are easier, but slow
Outside we try another dance
he holds the banister with one hand
my shoulder with his other
I have one hand halfway
around his titanic belly
and the other free, if he
should begin to let go or fall
The car in the driveway with its small
unlocked door seems far away
How am I going to get in? he asks
Ass first; then one leg at a time
And slow, slow, dad, we’ve got no deadline
Eleven o ‘clock, he corrects
The doctor can’t start without us, pop, no sweat
But I am wrong, his shirt is drenched wet,
His thin hair matted, and flat
from #21 - Summer 2004