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      July 23, 2019My Son No Longer MissingSusan Vespoli

      I like to think he graduated
      from the methadone clinic,
      now does yoga, gave up
       
      smoking. I like to think he grew
      a new set of bright teeth
      to replace the ones that rotted.
       
      I like to think he rents a studio
      with a patio near the canal
      filled with crappies and sunfish
       
      not nodding off with homeless junkies.
      I like to think he leans back
      in an Adirondack, after loading
       
      the dishwasher with cupcake pans
      from birthday muffins like the ones
      he baked for me topped with candles
       
      that he brought to the Mex place
      where he hired a trio of sequined
      mariachis to serenade us
       
      as we dined on cheese enchiladas.
      I like to think he is waiting
      for just the right minute of the right hour
       
      of the right day to reappear
       
      to tell me he is living
       
      free of pills and booze and meth
      and smack and at the end
      of each long hot Phoenix day,
       
      he drops himself
      into the cool blue complex pool,
      then emerges shiny, dripping.

      from Poets Respond

      Susan Vespoli

      “What started as a free-flowing prescription for pain pills for back pain turned into a heroin addiction, and eventually an eraser.”