March 11, 2015

Cortney Lamar Charleston

A BRIEF HISTORY OF POETRY

after Dan Albergotti

All day the boy sits behind the house
with his dog; all day the dog sits with him.
Well before then, the boy is dog himself:
obedient, sharp-toothed thing. Sun-kissed
boy. Too much kissed by sun, too much
kissed early on. Forgets his sharp teeth.
Forgets his animal, his beast, his chain
of events that keeps him in the yard. Swoons
to the song of chain in swish. Fetches after
the orange ball like a good dog. Dog of sun.
Dog of Jesus. Dog that kneels when told,
genuflects on cue, that loves the sound of
tambourines, of metals fracturing silence.
He gets fed good meats. Plays with bones,
or studies archaeology, as some may call it.
Unearths. Devolves as he evolves. Hypothesizes
he is mutt on his father’s side, probably of
mixing by force. He is boy now, the smallness
of men. Wants his own dog, no longer to be
dog, wants to be man. Finally gets dog that
he sits with behind the house, the house he
gets moved from, made to mix by force of
proximity. Finds himself having to kiss up
because he is too sun-kissed to be down
with the other boys. Doesn’t use the same
words, or uses the same words differently.
Can’t figure out if he is still barking or they are.
All his old friends were his dogs, but he is boy
now, so he thinks, not completely hip to his
mouth re-learning the shape of certain words,
why suddenly they interest him like the hind-
quarters of a bitch, an instinct he should be
beyond, may have accidentally taught himself,
become dog again when his first dog died: when
it had a stroke behind the house and he sat there
with it until his father could cart it off to sleep.

from Rattle #46, Winter 2014

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Cortney Lamar Charleston: “This affair with poetry began after attending a spoken word showcase on my college campus. One performer by the name of Joshua Bennett drew me in, particularly. He was everything I loved about rhythm, about the black body, about the courage I had in me that I rarely showed. Before I knew it, I was putting every pound of me into verse of some type; all that paper became heavy. It became my go-to for explaining weight-gain to loved ones. Them old folks always said I was a heavy boy.” (web)

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November 18, 2014

Jacqueline Berger

RUIN PORN

A woman in a poem wants to be raped
to have the third child
she and her husband have both agreed
they can’t handle or afford.
Doesn’t fantasize more money or help
but force, because we’re all sick
of our ledgers, pros to one side
cons to the other,
so being slammed against a wall,
having the wishbone of her legs pried apart,
though the poet doesn’t speak of this,
the strain of muscles that know
they’re going to lose, being slammed
has in our rational lives an appeal. 
We hire out our wild,
dress him in black, cram
his head into a ski mask,
who wraps a handful of our hair
in his fist, drives us to our knees.

We fondle the details,
infinite losses a body suffers—
aneurism, embolism. How many hours
or days unconscious before death
slips his gloved hand
over the mouth and nose,
ushers one in the dark
to her seat?
Easier to talk about
the leak than the plug,
what we didn’t intend to lose
and not how we wanted
to be filled. 

A friend around the table
tells a story: a woman
with a vicious desire—
coming made her angry—
died an hour after.
Odd word, stroke, the tenderness
of a hand running its length
over a surface. The opposite
of strike, a field of flaming poppies
rising on a cheek.

No one wants to die,
but no one wants to live forever,
so how not love the thief
who favors us with the end?
We don’t know our lives
face to face but from behind.
From a distance,
shape and meaning.
In the middle, the picture pulses,
pinwheels of color.
We’re showered, struck
and dumbstruck.

from Rattle #44, Summer 2014

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Jacqueline Berger: “It’s kind of exciting, kind of shameful, the feeling we get looking at horrible images, so the theory of ruin porn goes. But expand the definition of arousal, and the pornographic becomes the poetic. We read poetry to be lured from the daily hypnosis by the startle of lyric. As for ruin—loss, grief in its infinite shadings—there’s nothing shameful about being compelled by that which we can’t avoid.” (website)

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July 17, 2014

Jack Powers

MAN ON THE FLOOR

I remember my thirteen-year-old self walking through my sister’s freshman dorm as the girls yelled, “Man on the floor! 
Man on the floor!” and I, not yet a man but hoping, looked for any excuse to fetch forgotten items from the car 
or just stand in that hallway soaking in that mix of fear, annoyance and flirtation. My idea of a man then was probably my father’s 
 
paycheck-earning, pipe-smoking, golf-ball-whacking, bourbon-swilling silence or James Bond’s unstirred cool. No, it was probably 
just playing football, basketball—and baseball until someone learned to throw a curve. And girls—Courtney Carron, in particular that fall, 
and dreams of getting a hand under her tight shirt. Even over the bra would have had me standing taller for a week. Once my dad, 
 
after a hot afternoon of golf and a cart of cold beers, broke a rib mowing the lawn when the mower overheated and 
kicked back into his chest. I’d been hearing the mower roar and stop, roar and stop, watching my father search through the grass 
before screwing something back in and restarting, but I didn’t know until afterwards that the mower was out of oil.  
 
So when my father tiptoed around the house, saying, “I’m fine,” through   gritted teeth, I wanted to shout, “Just say it hurts” and 
“Just say you’re an idiot.” Of all the things I’d sworn I’d do differently than him, my ability to admit my idiocy has never developed. 
I’ve learned to apologize, but—there’s always a “but” as I need to explain why every stupid thing I’ve ever done 
 
seemed like a good idea at the time and I wonder if the girls were really yelling, “Idiot on the floor! Idiot on the floor!” 
The first year I taught, I wore sneakers to school because I didn’t have any adult shoes. My boss suggested I take charge of the class more: 
use a point system, assign seats and buy some shoes. But I didn’t want to make the class any more oppressive than it already was 
 
so I threw her a bone and bought semi-comfortable shoes that weren’t too dorky. The shoes seemed like one more part 
of the disguise I was sure they’d all figure out someday. They say everyone feels powerless; the last to know they have power 
are those who have it. Is that true for the clueless as well? What clues have I missed? I think of Edie years ago 
 
calling me an asshole. I had to agree. “But,” I wanted to explain, “I’d spent years dreaming of that night—
when we climbed into your parents’ car in that dark garage and laid the seats flat, when I was finally inside you—
I wasn’t thinking about Kerry arriving from LA in a week—” but Edie didn’t want to hear it. And I didn’t try to explain. How could I? 
 
The day before he died, my father awoke in his hospital bed and said, “Everything in Springfield is just like it was—
Dreisen’s Fountain, McDougal’s Grocery. The whole street is the same.” “Did you see anyone there?” I asked, 
not sure if it was dream or dementia. But my father’s eyes had turned to the wall. Sensing the end—hoping really, 
 
because the next stop was a nursing home he’d made clear he never wanted to see—I went to get my family from the lounge.  
All I could hear was the squeak of my semi-adult shoes on linoleum in that hospital hall. Stroke and dementia 
had softened my father, made him kinder. He seemed to appreciate us all more. “You’re a better father than I was,”
 
he said one night after he’d watched me coach Will in some peewee basketball game and if he wasn’t my father 
I would have hugged him, but I needed a stroke myself to break the habits of our long history. “Thanks” is all I could sputter, 
not “The rules have changed. You did your best.” In class, a student said, “You forget 90% of your dreams 
 
in the first ten minutes you’re awake.” What percent of my dreams did I forget by age twenty? The list of failings 
my thirteen-year-old self nurtures increases by one. Some Septembers the freshmen boys’ attempts to saunter down the halls 
are so uncertain, it’s as if the ground is shifting. I want to shout, “Man on the floor!” to embolden their strides 
 
if only for a moment. I think of having yelled at my own son, now probably back from school and rooted 
to the couch and his computer, and I cringe at how much I sounded like my own father: sarcastic, impatient,
wanting the problem solved now. When I open the door he’s already glued to his laptop eating Chex Mix. “Sorry,” I say. 
“What?” he says, trying to keep one eye on me and one on the screen. “I’m an idiot,” I say. And he flips it shut 
and says, “What?” Before I can say, “But …” the dog starts barking and    barking. I don’t know what he’s trying to say. 
I kneel on the floor to calm him, but his barking grows more frenzied, his furious tail sweeps magazines off the tables.  
 
The dog picks up a toy and begins a high-pitched whine that sounds like singing. My son is asking, “What are you doing?” 
I shake my head. It doesn’t matter what I say, just what I do. The dog keeps singing. My son’s brow furrows in confusion and concern.
But I can only lay back on the floor, close my eyes and slow my breath as if I could fall asleep and wake up and start all over again.
 

from Rattle #42, Winter 2013
2013 Rattle Poetry Prize Finalist

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Jack Powers: “I wrote the first draft of ‘Man on the Floor’ in my head while walking my dog. Charlie and our walk figured prominently in the early drafts. Although most of it ended up on the cutting room floor, the cadence of a walk and the in-and-out-of-my-head movement of my brain on a walk seem to still be there. And Charlie still gets a little song at the end.” (web)

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June 10, 2014

Aran Donovan

TWO LEFT FEET

I cannot be danced,
not, certainly, led,
not foxtrotted, conned,
not fixed. I haven’t
the shoes. Once, pelt
ruined, a dead fox lay
roadside. Footless, for
I never saw it run. 
I hadn’t the shoes
to lend it, moonless
and mindstunned. Return
to my empty window worse
than begun.
Own waltz, own trolley,
ding dong. The right
steps and I’m gone. Good 
as useless, these shoes.
I’ve tried. Black nights come
for everyone.
 

from Rattle #42, Winter 2013

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Aran Donovan: “At nine, I followed my father on his hospital rounds—down white corridors, past patient beds and nurse stations, into imaging labs. There, he held x-rays and scans up to a light box, diagnosing strokes, aneurysms, atrophies. Watching him, I learned that each succession of images needs interpretation, words to connect the scenes. I write poems to make sense of what I see.”

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April 27, 2014


Tony Gloeggler

GOY

I tell you to let it ring.
You give my lips a quick
kiss, lean over and pick
up the phone. You say
Hello, press your palm
over the mouthpiece, whisper,
It’s my mother. You move
to the edge of the bed, turn
away and sit up, answer,
Yeah.
                    No, no.
                                        Stop
doing this to me, Mom.

I slide across the bed,
kiss soft shoulders, glide
my lips down your spine, fit
my tongue in the crack
of your ass. You look back,
your eyes ask me to please
stop. I shake my head
sideways, smile. Not
a chance. I crawl out
of bed, kneel in front
of you. My lips, tongue
stroke thighs, kiss and lick
you open, move inside you,
try to make you come.
Come, while your mother
swears on the bodies
of her two brothers
gassed at Dachau
that I will slowly
swallow your soul.

from Rattle #10, Winter 1998

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January 10, 2014

Eric Paul Shaffer

THE WORD-SWALLOWER

There is no charge for admission to the green, mildewed tent
staked slackly in an alley of the midway between a cotton candy
cart and ping-pong toss. Billed an attraction, the word-swallower

is not. Few come to observe him, seated on a steel, folding chair,
beneath a single spot in a vacant, shadowed, curtained room,
enshrined in silence. He swallows words. His silence is golden.

No matter how keen the verbiage rising to his tongue, no matter
how many edges on each unspoken word that comes to mind,

his tent is hushed but for the whispers of visitors who mark well
his silent line of lips. He answers no questions, retorts to no quip,
responds to no riposte, and his attendant dog-faced boy at the door

tells every dusty bumpkin a grim, dismal tale. Says the boy,
“If there were a king of the carnival, a lord of the boardwalk,

the word-swallower is not he. He hasn’t spoken since he learned
to talk. With no words for his wisdom, he speaks none.
Philosophers divide our sullen species from the other chimpanzees

          by the power of speech, but the word-swallower knows finer
and says naught on this or any other subject.” The word-swallower

denies nothing. He fears no loss in lack of speech. He keeps peace
battened like a castle under siege and guards an armory of lustrous
weapons best left beyond reach. From imaginary battlements, each

word slips behind the tongue, lies sunk in the gullet, plummets
to the gut. Lips sealed, tongue unbitten, his thought hardens

beneath the red fist beating the bars of his chest and the bellows
burning breath into a world soundless and pointless without words.
At dusk, the word-swallower and dog-faced boy stroll into the hills

          of a trim town noisy with streetlit night. The boy barks.
The word-swallower strokes the curly fur on the boy’s ears,
creeping through charged darkness and the grandiloquence of stars.

from Rattle #40, Summer 2013

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Eric Paul Shaffer: “I’m a great lover of carnivals, and my eye gravitates to stories about them. In one, as I read a list of performers, I misread ‘the sword-swallower,’ and the complete central image for the poem appeared full-blown before me. Luckily, the dog-faced boy arrived when I—understandably—needed someone to speak for the word-swallower. I’m a fan of serendipity, too.”

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September 3, 2013

Corrie Williamson

XANTHUS, ACHILLES’ IMMORTAL WARHORSE, RODEOS IN AMARILLO

Ah, why did we give you…to a mortal,
while you are deathless and ageless?
Was it so you could share men’s pain?
Nothing is more miserable than man
of all that breathes and moves upon earth.
—The Iliad, XVII, trans. Stanley Lombardo

It was meant to be a gift, though the gods
should know by now it never is: sick of it

themselves, grown fidgety, restless, meddlesome.
It was harder on me of course than Balius,

him having never known speech while I tongue
the narrow trough of my mouth and half

expect words to return. Where he is now
I don’t know. After a time, we gave up being

untamable, and let ourselves be led, be put
to whatever tasks men could imagine. They call

this place Texas, hot enough for wandering
souls, where all of time stretches before me

as an endless tunnel of wind. The children wear
strange hats and their boots point like nettles

between fence boards. Men wish to be thrown, and,
understanding, I toss them, light as milkweed,

as burdock. But how tiring to make a living
from this act of riddance: spur in the side and belly

raw, summoning the body’s rage, a strap of leather
and bone buckled and desperate for breaking.

from Rattle #38, Winter 2012
Tribute to Speculative Poetry

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Corrie Williamson: “After college, I embarked on a trial career as an archaeologist. A year later, I gave it up to pursue my poetry MFA, but for me, the disciplines remain closely related. Poetry too is a process of excavation which I think at its best, for reader and writer, involves dirt and dust, gentle brush strokes, and the piecing together of something buried or broken that gets held up to the sun either to illuminate or expand the mystery.”

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