October 19, 2024

Gabby Wenzel (age 7)

FRIEND

He waits by the door
when I come to school.
At recess, he waits for me
on the playground
with a smile.
 
He always tells me yes
and I try to always tell
him yes, too.
Isn’t that what friends do?
 
With other friends, it starts
out well but sometimes
it doesn’t end well.
With him, it always ends well. 
 
Sometimes I think we are
the moon holding up the
sky, even when there are no stars.
 

from 2024 Rattle Young Poets Anthology

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Why do you like to write poetry?

Gabby Wenzel: “In a poem, I can run without legs and be in the sunshine under the clouds. My imagination does the thinking and my hand does the writing. It’s so fun!”

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October 18, 2024

Jeff McRae

CHEAP GUITAR

I will fix up
her guitar now
she is dead,
now it is no
longer a symbol
 
for how I felt
every day since.
Now it is just
an unused
instrument.
 
We received her
ashes in an urn
and brought them
home to our
windowsill.
 
I will bring her
guitar back
with a wet cloth
and new strings
for our concert
 
when we move
her urn to the
center of the
living room
and sing to her.
 

from Rattle #85, Fall 2024
Tribute to Musicians

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Jeff McRae: “I’m a semi-pro musician born into a family of musicians, music teachers, and music lovers. But I’m the only one of us who also writes. I play all kinds of music—from traditional jazz (dixie) to theater—you name it. I gig maybe 50 nights a year. Music and poetry are intertwined in so many obvious and subtle ways. I love how music and poetry are both structured and improvised, sometimes simultaneously. I love how poetry is so often described by the language of music but it is music that captures the ineffable serendipity of life in a way poetry never quite can. In my own work (and life) music and musicians have been inexhaustible, thought-provoking primary sources. I grew up surrounded by Bach, Beethoven, the Beatles, and by the music my parents made. I idolized the guys in my dad’s bands. I devoted hours and hours and hours to study and practice—both poetry and music. They cross-pollinate. I found my footing as an adult on the bandstand when I realized I could hold my own, had something worth saying, worth listening to—when I realized I could play—and it continues to be the arena of becoming. Same for poetry. Playing with words sometimes results in interesting connections and ideas that make sense, too—where I figure out who I am. Poetry and music have been through lines, horizon notes for me. Now, one of my great joys is listening to my kids mess around with Bandcamp, improvise on our piano, and pick out songs on the same guitar passed down to me all those many years ago.”

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October 17, 2024

Eric Kocher

PASSENGER DECK

Now we are on the ferry we flew to drive to,
Its enormous engines vibrating
 
Every molecule, spreading out,
A family of ducks getting out of the way.
 
My wife claims there are fish jumping,
But every time I look up
 
They are gone, or she is lying.
I have become suspicious of my pursuit
 
Of remoteness, of seeking out places far away
And difficult to get to,
 
Places with fewer people, more trees.
I am suspicious
 
Because I know it’s at least somewhat
Insincere, that I very deeply need other people
 
Around me to feel safe, to feel important,
That part of my departure is the performance
 
Of departure, the making of the image of one.
This departure is certainly
 
Not about being alone.
My wife and I are here as a way of being
 
Even more together than we normally are,
Or maybe being together
 
In a way that we used to be all the time
Before our daughter was born.
 
Her birth made us closer, for sure,
It made our little story seem
 
Impossibly big and important,
Like we were conducting the soundtrack
 
To our daughter’s grand entrance
To being with other people, to being with herself.
 
But it also made certain parts of ourselves
And each other seem far away,
 
Like one of those distant places
I am always interested in going.
 
I tell my wife that, of all the places
On the planet, the place I want most to be
 
Is the North Pole, that I feel the Arctic calling me
As if from inside of a dream.
 
A smaller boat passes by and I’m surprised
When we are unmoved
 
By its little wake, that the waves,
Regardless of their size,
 
Should rock us, however gently.
But now we are on this gigantic boat
 
Looking for those people we used to be,
Trying to remember them without erasing
 
Each other, without erasing
The people that they have become
 
And all the ways they are growing still.
We also came here looking for whales,
 
I should add, that we bought tickets from people
Who promised we would see them.
 
And now that we are out here looking
For ourselves among them,
 
I have no idea why. Or, maybe,
I’m worried what might happen if they see me.
 

from Sky Mall
2024 Rattle Chapbook Prize Winner

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Eric Kocher: “A little over ten years ago, my friend Mark made a joke. He said that I should try to be the first person to publish a poem in Sky Mall Magazine. There was something about shopping for the most inane, kitschy stuff on the planet while flying 30,000 feet above it, just to avoid a moment of boredom, that seemed to be the antithesis of poetry. The words “Sky Mall” got stuck in my head—lodged there. This is almost always how poems happen for me. Language itself seems to be in the way just long enough to build tension before it can open into a space that pulls me forward. These poems finally arrived while I was traveling, first alone, and then the following year with my wife, as a new parent in that hazy dream of the post-pandemic. Writing them felt like going on a shopping spree, of sorts, so I tried to let myself say yes to everything.”

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October 16, 2024

Clint Margrave

BLUE FENDER TELECASTER

There was a time
when it meant everything,
when distortion was important,
feedback held the world back, 
delay delayed the inevitable. 
 
Unable to part with it,
I open up the case,
strum a few chords,
feel the soreness of my fingertips,
no longer hardened
by calluses.
 
It doesn’t matter 
that I wasn’t very good at it,
or that it didn’t get me laid,
or make me rich and famous, 
or that my ears never really did 
stop ringing. 
 
Now the strings won’t stay in tune,
the neck needs adjusting,
the output jack cracks,
when I plug it in
to an old practice amp. 
 
So much is like that.
So much that won’t stay in tune,
that cracks and softens 
and can’t be parted with.
 

from Rattle #85, Fall 2024
Tribute to Musicians

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Clint Margrave: “I bought the guitar off my friend for $400 back in the ’90s. At the time, music was the most important thing in my life. I played in bands and like a lot of young people in their late teens and early twenties, awaited certain rock stardom. The friend I bought the guitar off of did end up playing in a famous ’90s rock band later, and even borrowed the guitar to take on tour with him. For years I watched it travel the world, be played in front of arena crowds, make appearances on television before finally coming home. By then, I’d already switched to playing a different kind of instrument, one whose strings were words.” (web)

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October 15, 2024

Diane Seuss

WHAT IS AT THE HEART OF IT IS A VORACIOUS CLINGING TO WHAT IS CALLED LOVE

I always gripped that thrill, that fuchsia carbonation, swarm of blush-colored
butterflies colonizing the gut, and I believed it meant something beyond

a temporary flush of feeling; it’s what I knew of theatre, of God. I wanted
the play to never end, red curtains permanently drawn back like the lips

around the smile of an actress, dead before her time. I wanted God to never
rise into the air and return transparent and desexualized, resolved in his own

narrative, at peace with himself, because his peace meant I was no longer
necessary. It began early, when I was a girl, wandering the village seeking

Jesus. I loved the mechanics of salvation. Some churches made you squeeze
shut your eyes and raise your hand if you wanted to invite him into your heart,

and I could see the thick oaken door, hear the rusty hinges squeaking open
and Jesus walking into the hot burgundy room, my blood roaring like Niagara

when you walk behind the falls. Other times you were asked to stride to the front
of the church and publicly hand over your life to God, so the congregants could

witness your ecstasy, more intimate than a lover watching your unguarded face
during orgasm because in church there were no sexy conventions to hide behind,

no poses learned in movies or magazines; they would see the raw, unwieldy
moves of a body in the throes of desire without pretense. I can’t for the life of me

remember how I transferred that largesse to a boy as frail as Danny Davis,
whose family lived in a low gray shack on Bertrand Road. When he walked

onto the school bus, so early in the morning the world inside the bus was dark
as the church broom closet, I trembled like a newborn. When he exited at the end

of the day—in winter, the sky having already darkened again, a strip of pale orange
sunset running behind his house like the shabby ribbons we’d tie into our pony’s

mane if we’d had a pony—I’d feel more bereft than I had the day my father died,
as the day my father died I was numb, I needed a template for how to feel, a map

for how to walk, now that he was dead, to my Brownie meeting, or my best friend’s
house, whose toddler brother proclaimed, when I finally made my way through

the door, “Your dad’s dead!” like he was announcing a victory, like I had won
something, a cake, or a beauty pageant. I would like to end there, as what

comes later is adulthood, where thematic iterations throb like pulsars, metrical
as the contractions of an orgasm. What I can’t neglect, though I’d like to, is Sammy’s

Roumanian, a restaurant on Chrystie Street, in the Bowery, on the Lower East
Side of Manhattan, Sammy’s, on the Vernal Equinox in 1979, filled with laughter,

the tinny music from an electric keyboard, and faded red balloons. Sammy’s,
with its small pitcher of chicken fat—schmaltz—throbbing gold at the center

of each table. It’s where and when Kevin and I were to be married, and how
smart we were, to want to stop time when we were at the zenith of our beauty.

I wonder now, had we done it—and I want to bash my head against the wall,
thinking of it—could we have thwarted the rest? How he would die young,

and I—well, here I am, alive, it is so early in the morning all of the windows
on my street are dark, just me here in this house, facing west, where the sun goes

to die, and, all things being equal, the wind is born, and wanders east, and bears
down, and uproots everything that has not been nailed to a wooden cross.

from Rattle #36, Winter 2011
Rattle Poetry Prize Finalist

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Diane Seuss: “I was raised in a place that seems to me now to have been the maternity ward where archetypes were born. Bull snakes and milkweed pods, vitamin factories and cement churches with ‘God’ stuck over the door with vinyl mailbox lettering. I was saved, and saved again, and saved again and again, but it never took. Then I fell in love and in love again, and again. I was to be married on the Vernal Equinox on the Bowery in NYC, but I walked away. Things tumbled from there, as if love is ruled by the laws of physics, which it is. I now live in the gut of aloneness like a tapeworm. I quite like it here.” (web)

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October 14, 2024

Sue Fagalde Lick

WE GIG

We throw the word around like gold coins:
got a gig, come to my gig, gigging tonight.
We are cool, we play music for money,
not that boring classical shit, oh no,
the kind where the audience gets
hot, where they sing along, jump up
and dance because they can’t
sit still, because we’re doing our gig
and you should hear us Sunday night
’cause we are gigging and we are good.
 
At Kathy’s gig in a sticky-floored
warehouse full of beer, hot dogs,
and noise, she sweats on stage,
tearing out her vocal cords,
ripping up her fingertips,
overamped, a little drunk,
singing songs she wrote in tears
to heathens who will never hear,
and almost no one tips the jar,
but it’s a gig, she’s having fun.
 
Jason sings in the hotel bar,
playing soft tunes in a soft room
where the aging patrons sip
cabernet and whisper-talk,
clapping softly between songs
while Jason mutters to himself
and fiddles with his beatbox.
Bald and bearded, he sings
like a man sentenced to gig
for three hours every night.
He needs those wrinkled dollar bills.
 
Gig. Funny word. A performance,
a shortening of gigabyte,
a carriage in the olden days,
a whirling toy, a flighty girl,
a harpoon used to murder fish,
half of a giggle, don’t you know?
I’m giggling cause I’ve got a gig,
but when I say I’ve got a gig,
I want everyone to be impressed.
I’m more interesting than you,
you with your nine to five,
even if I’m singing in the rain
to three drunks and a dog.
It’s a gig and I am cool.
Come feed my tip jar, please.
 

from Rattle #85, Fall 2024
Tribute to Musicians

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Sue Fagalde Lick: “I have been playing music as long as I have been writing poems. I have lugged my guitar to theaters, clubs, galleries, senior centers, and street fairs, offering my original songs and covers of others. I have sung and played piano at weddings and funerals. I led the choirs at church for pay and for free. The rhythms and sounds can’t help but seep into my poetry. It’s a good line, but can I sing it?” (web)

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October 13, 2024

Lexi Pelle

HOW TO TELL A RIGHT-TRUNKED ELEPHANT FROM A LEFTY

check for the side with ruffled whiskers
and wrinkles, elephants tend to tilt
their trunks to scoop fruit so one half’s
always a bit shabbier than the other. The end
of my husband’s left eyebrow is sparse
because of the direction he faces
while sleeping. All those beat-up tractors
heaving diesel across our fields,
the fluorescent smirk of strip malls
I see as I speed down Route 22,
the Canada geese—those trucker swans,
those bootlegged angels—if god’s
got a rumpled, favored side
we’re it. We’re the word
that’s been written with a dominant
hand. Is it because we longed for more
legible script? A world we’d slide
our sorrows down as long as it was written
in smooth cursive. We’re ready
to unknow now. When we place Bibles
in roadside motel rooms, slide
flowers into the spokes of white bikes,
when a woman calls the cops
and orders half pepperoni half
mushroom while her husband goes to
give her daughter a goodnight kiss,
we aren’t asking for answers
we’re asking god to switch hands.
 

from Poets Respond

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Lexi Pelle: “Frank X. Gaspar wrote, ‘It’s never the aboutness of anything but the wailing underneath it.’ This poem, although based on a relatively uncharged article, was a slow settling into that wailing.” (web)

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