June 28, 2023

Luisa Caycedo-Kimura

QUERIDAS TÍAS,

Snow falls like fists. Mamá sends Cesar, Tita, and me out to play, build snowmen, like the kids on TV, but Cesar puts it down my coat, makes me scream. The neighborhood boys pack it into ice balls. Yesterday Chickie threw one, hit my back, left me without air. My friend Luz says it’s because he likes me. I don’t want that. Ms. Barratta says the word “Arctic” comes from the Greek word for bear. “Antarctic” means the opposite of bear. I don’t know what that is. Maybe penguins or toucans. En Los Estados Unidos kids have teddy bears. Ms. Barratta says they were named after some president who decided not to shoot one. But he was a hunter. I don’t understand why we left Colombia. Nothing makes sense here. The apartment is crowded and loud with nine of us. Cesar, Tita, and I walk four blocks with a huge heavy bag to do everyone’s laundry. There are no guava trees to climb, no backyard, no swinging around the world from the highest branch.
 

from Rattle #80, Summer 2023

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Luisa Caycedo-Kimura: “My mother taught me to love Spanish-language poetry, reciting it to me from the time I was in utero. However, in the United States, I didn’t think it was possible for a Colombian-born woman to become an English-language writer. So, I pursued a ‘respectable’ career and studied law. It wasn’t until I read the prelude to Sandra Cisneros’s My Wicked Wicked Ways that I finally ‘took up with poetry,’ giving in to my ‘absurd vice’ to live ‘this wicked wanton writer’s life.’” (web)

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June 27, 2023

Allan Johnston

GOATS

Near Northport, Washington

A goat full of Camel cigarette butts
is a wormed goat, people said. They carried
stumped out cigarettes in their pockets
and fed them to goats like kids giving sugar
to horses. The goats would eat them the way
they seemed to eat anything they could love,
which was everything. But Camel butts
weren’t their only door to the human;

dinner slops mixed with ash tray fillings,
marijuana roaches, burnt hash-pipe foil,
everybody’s chewing gum: anything’s food
to a goat. And in other ways

they could cross that fickle line
we claimed as a boundary.
Unsuspecting foils of jealousy
learned a lot, or at least earned a limp,
from butting horns that showed who had
the cajones this side of the wire. One day
we took the trash to the Northport dump.
Two things were open, or opened; the gate
to the goat pen, and the door to the house.
When we came back the goats were lying
on the sofa they were eating;
the towels were gone; one was mounting the stove
while another nudged cupboard doors
for the cereal. Tiny goat turds
lay on the carpet like counters in some
unfinished game you could only play

if you saw through those weird, rectangular
coffin-lid pupils in the eyes of a goat
gone over into our world. We got them
out of the house, established some sense

of order, or at least what we thought
was hierarchy. Outside, the goats
nuzzled each other, gently opening
doorways to another life.

from Rattle #29, Summer 2008

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Allan Johnston: “‘Goats’ is part of a series of poems about my experiences living in northern Washington State in the mid-1970s—in the heart of the ‘back to the land’ phase of the hippie movement. Though there is some elaboration and mixing of experiences, the goats actually did get in the house and wreak their own sort of havoc.” (web)

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June 26, 2023

Ana María Caballero

MAMMAL ONE

 
Mammal One by Ana María Caballero, the short poem written over a dark sphere

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A spoken-word poem by Ana María Caballero visualized via a series of works coded in p5js that convey pregnant time—with its sensations of inevitability, vulnerability, and physical entrapment. Written in Caballero’s signature straightforward style, this text forms part of her prize-winning manuscript Mammal.

from Rattle #80, Summer 2023
Tribute to NFT Poets

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Ana María Caballero: “Minting my poems as NFTs has connected my work to a thriving, welcoming community eager to engage with poetry. It’s afforded me creative collaborations and opportunities I couldn’t have ever dreamed possible. I also think that blockchain provenance can help raise important questions, such as why are poems not exhibited and collected as art? Why aren’t poems typically in museums? Why aren’t poems in major art collections? Why are poems not transacted? I believe that we have a real possibility of elevating poetry’s cultural agency by bringing it into dialogue with the art world via technology and by speaking the visual languages of digital audiences. This is deeply exciting to me. I believe poems are works of art and should be collected, exhibited, and collected as such.” (web)

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June 25, 2023

Heidi Seaborn

F IS FOR FEAR

And it is raining. Someone left an upright piano
beside a steep road. Its case exposed like a throat.
Clouds of data my mother says, concerned that
data is consuming the blue of the sky. I try to
explain, but then decide she’s right in a way—the
fear of extinguishing air, a snuff film on loop. I
get it, imagining the Titanic tourist submersible
holding a shrinking supply of breathable air adrift
in the Atlantic’s depths. The five inside, inhaling
just enough oxygen. Does opera music play?
King Charles sends thoughts and prayers. I see
Leo and Kate in the midnight blue of Titanic,
motionless, breath clouding their frosted lips.
Neptune welcomed sacrifice. To recover the
OceanGate sub is a complex mission: the depth,
pressure of descending 8,000 meters. It must be
quiet there, in the ocean’s gullet. It isn’t the actual
rape that I can’t forget after decades, it’s the
strangulation. And I’ve wondered if in a past life,
that’s how I’d died. Maybe in all of them. Dying,
unable to breathe, piano wire tightening into a
vise around my throat. Gustav Holst’s Neptune’s
wordless chorus of women, an operatic ending.
X on a map of the ocean floor. XOs of data
yoking the sky. Somewhere a sub in the Midnight
Zone. The breathing slows to a pianissimo coda.
 

from Poets Respond
June 25, 2023

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Heidi Seaborn: “This afternoon I saw a discarded upright piano missing its front panel in the rain, which brought on feelings of exposure and vulnerability, triggering thoughts of fears, my mother’s and my own greatest fear—of being unable to breathe. I’d been thinking about the five people trapped in a submersible at the bottom of the Atlantic, their oxygen dwindling. I chose to write the poem in a constrictive form—a left/right justified abecedarian. It’s a throat, a submersible, a dark cloud, an upright piano on the page. And it’s a straight jacket to write in, each word carefully chosen, as I imagine the inhabitants of the submersible rationing their words, their breath.” (web)

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June 24, 2023

Janelle Adamson (age 8)

FOR DADDY ON HIS BIRTHDAY

My dad is a strong
tree. He can never be broken
by thunder or ice storms.
 
He carries my sadness
in his branches. I feel happy
again. He shelters me
 
from the rain
of my fears.
His kisses tickle me
 
like leaves.
I like sitting with my back
against his strong trunk.
 
He makes me feel important
in this world.

from 2023 Rattle Young Poets Anthology

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Why do you like to write poetry?

Janelle Adamson: “I like to write poetry because it’s fun and inspiring, and I like getting to write with my mom because my mom writes poetry, and she has helped me be interested in poetry.”

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June 23, 2023

Penny Z. Campbell

SUGAR

                       1
 
When my son went to prison,
I ate sugar. His wife wanted no one
outside the family to know;
she used the word private
three times and I can assure you
I eat my sugar privately. 
 
 
                       2
 
Before sunrise, I get up, rain sugar 
over my bowl of berries
which don’t even need it
while my husband is still asleep.
Later, while he plays piano downstairs,
I pour hot water over
apricot-flavored tea leaves,
and when they have steeped, transfer it
to a stoneware mug.
Then I take the jar of apricot jam 
from the refrigerator and dip out
a wide, glistening spoonful 
while the winter-hard honey liquifies 
in the microwave. All that sweetness,
I stir it hard, beat it until
it becomes one with the tea,
wrap my cold fingers around
the tall mug and drink down
the sugar, the sugar, the sugar
while no one is watching—
discreetly, confidentially, my elixir 
of forgetfulness, while my son 
gets his coffee from the mess hall.
 
 
                      3
 
I never called him Sugar. Cutie pie when 
he was little and now, when we wave goodbye
in the visitor room, after the guests have risen 
and the men are allowed to file out
and he shouts, Bye, Mom! I call back,
Bye, Honey! It’s the least I can do, leave him with
a public declaration of affection, since hugs
are not allowed, not now. We pull our masks down
and when the guards don’t complain—they are not,
after all, wearing masks themselves—we keep them off,
down around our necks, so we can see each other’s 
faces, so I can see his smile, his sweet smile.
 
 
                       4
 
I called his father Sweetheart, something 
that amazes me now. That man’s mouth 
smelled of Winstons 
and the only whiskey I ever tasted 
was on his lips. He was the one 
who socked me, threw me, came at me 
with the gun—and he was the only one 
I granted that endearment. 
He was not a monster, he was my high school 
sweetheart—see? It rolls off the tongue. 
Back then he smelled like bubblegum. 
And although I finally left him, he left me 
with this boy, this towheaded sweet pea.
 
 
                       5
 
Once, after the divorce, I let his father
take him for a week, and when I said goodbye
as he lay half in his crib, half clinging to me,
I said, I’ll be back, I promise! but he cried inconsolably, 
I want more Mommy! I want more Mommy!
 
 
                       6
 
The sugar in the sugar bowl keeps running low. 
The bowl itself is somewhat valuable, not genuine
Russel Wright but a real reproduction, a copy 
itself no longer made. It is beautiful, it shines, 
my favorite chartreuse, and I refill it 
over and over these days. These years,
these seventy months, ten months off
for good behavior, which of course he will get, 
so when we talk about it we say five years.
He minds his manners even when the guards 
do not. He minds his manners even though 
the guards never do. He manages to tell me this
without quite spelling it out. What he does is,
he sweetens it up. We do that for each other. 
We are cunning, we are kind; we do not
belong in a place like this. 
 
 
                       7
 
For years, I made chai every day
after work, back in those days when I worked.
Water and spiced Darjeeling leaves, then too much
cream, a long pour of sugar. Heated 
to blistering, how many times would I get up,
abashed, to sneak another teaspoon of sugar
from the bowl, furtively, as though someone 
were watching, keeping count? No one cared
but my doctor, and why did I even tell him? 
 
 
                       8
 
Three teaspoons make one tablespoon 
and if you use a spoon from the flatware tray,
you don’t even know what you’re doing. 
It’s not as if the FBI is keeping count. 
They only do that if you
accidentally / inadvertently / wholly innocently
download child pornography and they see it,
somehow, even though you don’t, and it
hangs there, heavy, ripe fruit in the ether, 
and they give you one two three four
five six seven eight nine ten eleven twelve
thirteen fourteen fifteen sixteen seventeen 
eighteen nineteen twenty twenty-one twenty-
two twenty-three twenty-four hours to pick up
the phone and report it. After that it’s too late, 
even when you tell them you were at work, and
you were picking up your kids at daycare, and
you were making them dinner, and
you were talking to your wife, and
you were reading bedtime stories, and
you were completely unaware of the evil
on your computer, the one you shut twenty-
five hours before. Who on earth knows you
ought to call the FBI? Even when you tell them
you were horrified / terrified / sickened and
disgusted by what you found there. Even when
your fierce wife stands up and tells them
what a good fine upstanding man / husband /
father you are. Even then. You’re it.
 
 
                       9
 
We could buy all sorts of candy 
if the vending machines were not shut down,
not barred with actual padlocks as if
they were the gates to freedom.  
What harm could candy do? But this place
is behind the curve, outside the science
which says the virus is in the air, not
the candy. We could sit there feeding the coin slot
quarters, commanding Snickers to fall,
inducing showers of M&M’s, and eat them
together, apart. I could spend ten dollars,
the outdated manual says, on sweets. 
And we could hug hello and goodbye, 
smell the sugar on each other’s breath.
 
 
                       10
 
Glucose / fructose / galactose,
receipt / possession / distribution.
This is how a plea deal works: 
you may plead to less than three, 
but you cannot plead to none. 
 
 
                       11
 
I remember when my father 
would tire of the syrup on his Sunday pancakes 
and resort to sugar, icing them 
into granulated circles, and
how it made a crunch, biting down. 
He taught me to sugar my tomatoes
when we tired of salt and pepper, so many 
tomatoes from the garden, we needed a change.
Beet sugar, cane sugar,
sugar in the morning sugar in the evening
sugar at supper time. We had a candy drawer 
next to the stove, always full of lemon drops
and chocolate stars, and the cookie jar 
kept full by my mother.
 
 
 
                       12
 
I pretend to take it by the teaspoon,
but the crystals on the tablespoon
say otherwise. My friend with the Tarot cards
asks me, What is your favorite
crystal? and I answer, Sugar,
making sure to laugh like it’s a joke.  
 
 
                       13
 
I pour, I sift, I sprinkle, I shovel 
heavy drifts. When the sugar bowl 
is empty I fill it from the canister
and when the canister is empty 
there is always a new bag 
on the shelf. I try to forgo it
at the grocery store, try not to have it
in the house but there’s always a need
in recipes, innocent things like cornbread,
dressing, a sheet cake for church. When I bake
I don’t eat even one piece; I scrape off 
the bowl / the beaters / the spoon
and take it straight. Sugar and butter,
but never butter without sugar. 
Someone warns me it’s dangerous,
the raw flour, the raw eggs, and I say,
That’s interesting. 
 
 
                       14
 
Time stretches like warm taffy between
his calls, his letters, our long-distance visits.
Now I have tea twice a day, one laced with
jam and honey, the other Earl Grey with cream
and sugar, sugar, sugar. I tell my husband
this is my Zen moment. My cave, my cell.
 
 
                       15
 
Oh, sugar. Oh, I love you. Oh, thank you 
for leavening the bitter taste in the world
these days, these sixty or seventy months. 
Thank you, sweetie / honey /sugar
my love, my love, my love.
 

from Rattle #80, Summer 2023

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Penny Z. Campbell: “I write poetry not to find out what I think—I start with words lighting on my head—but to take things further. I write to document, to archive, to speak unmuffled about both joy and pain. I love to play with words, line breaks, near rhymes, even formal restraints (sometimes). When something hard happens, when what I think is what I feel and it hurts, I find solace in poetry even as it unburies more pain. Sometimes it helps. It’s all right if it doesn’t. ‘Penny Campbell’ is a pseudonym.”

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June 22, 2023

A Lonesome Border by Carmella Dolmer, marker drawing of two shadowy figures looking down into a dark hole

Image: “A Lonesome Border” by Carmella Dolmer. “You Don’t Have to Choose” was written by Beth Copeland for Rattle’s Ekphrastic Challenge, May 2023, and selected as an Editor’s Choice. (PDF / JPG)

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Beth Copeland

YOU DON’T HAVE TO CHOOSE

Between the cube and the circle,
the container or the eddying drain,
 
the cardboard box or the manhole,
the collapsing star or the burning house,
 
the fiery floor or the raspberry arch that becomes a rainbow
after a thunder storm,
 
the missing door or the haloed saints that hover
in the Tuscan afterglow,
 
the embodied self or the shadow
holding your hand,
 
the green selvage of the world
where everything grows—grass, kudzu, weeping willows,
 
or the waterless well you might mistake
for an open window.
 
Yes, you have free will. Yes, you have a voice.
Not choosing is also a choice.
 

from Ekphrastic Challenge
May 2023, Editor’s Choice

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Comment from the editor, Megan O’Reilly: “I love the way this poem begins as a literal, generalized description of Carmella Dolmer’s piece—‘the cube and the circle’—and then progressively becomes more abstract and metaphorical—‘the haloed saints that hover,’ ‘the waterless well.’ Like the artwork, whose rich simplicity hints at more complex truths, ‘You Don’t Have to Choose’ seems to suggest that the cube and the circle are archetypal here, and the poet vividly and imaginatively explores this symbolism. The last stanza completely detaches from the imagistic nature of the rest of the poem to deliver objective statements, and the creative whiplash of this transition, combined with the undiluted truth of the statements themselves, renders the ending affecting and meaningful.”

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