December 18, 2024

Scott Withiam

BIRD IN A FOREST

The first time my father struck my mother,
I didn’t see it happen, but heard a sound
I could only equate with one potato picked
then thrown to a harvested pile of them.
And then I saw the place my mother had been
 
standing, in the same place another time,
near the kitchen stove, while cooking breakfast
for the whole family, and her housecoat caught
fire, though then, more a whoosh, in which
those tiny terrycloth loops snapped
 
like pine needles igniting one to another
at breakneck speed. My father grabbed
the porcelain baking dish soaking in the sink,
and doused the fire, at the same time screaming,
“Your own damn fault. You’re not
 
paying attention!” as in, after the fire
extinguished, the soaked black smudge
on her housecoat was a destroyed forest.
And the trees still sighing hidden
in both parents saying, “That could have been
 
so much worse.” Later, I came back
to my mother’s new satin pink housecoat,
the rustle of it, as it fell from her
knocked out of it, as hearing then spotting
a bird in that forest as a sign of life
 
returning, not her scrambling back
into the housecoat and off the floor
faster than any flame, but her
as the loose string found and flown
into the living room, feathered
 
into the nest of my father’s leather
recliner. That’s because I had gone to her
there, kept calling “Mom!” “Mother?”
but she didn’t move, stared silent
for a long time, as if somebody
 
seated, growing more and more
comfortable before a fire,
though able, finally, to call back,
“I don’t want you here, ever.”
 

from Rattle #85, Fall 2024

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Scott Withiam: “I wish this was one of those poems about which I could say, ‘It wrote itself.’ That would nicely distance me from any uncomfortable personal associations with the incidents portrayed in the poem, and with poems I write that I am often too quick to judge as self-absorbed therapy poems and then drop before finishing. I long knew, however, that my father had struck my mother more than once, and increasingly disturbing, the longer this remained buried the incidents turned insignificant, minor. Too much of that (increasingly disturbing, the longer this remained buried the incidents turned insignificant, minor) going on these days. The imagery poured out as soon as I went back to that childhood kitchen, but it, and the various scenes found in the poem, came out disjointed. Much like the feeling after trauma or reasoning with trauma or the nature of any recovery, at any level, I soon thought, ‘so maybe use that in the poem.’ The images, meanwhile, felt alive with possible meanings or directions and seemed to, in subsequent drafts, begin to fit within shifts, or sometimes both shift and image worked together, heightened each other. Those are the highlights of how this poem seemed to come together, and that description may sound as confusing as the poem started out. Anyway, finished, I thought the poem came close in its portrayal of the confused sense of a helpless witness and the hidden magnitude of destruction to ourselves and others.”

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December 17, 2024

Denise Duhamel

POEM IN WHICH I PURSUED MY DREAM OF DOING STAND-UP

When articles I read in 1980 demanded
a woman comic make fun of her appearance,
I went for it. I embraced my fat because John Waters
thought fat was hilarious. In fact, I ate so much
I doubled my size and wore small, unflattering
T-shirts to highlight my stomach rolls. I wasn’t afraid
to be raunchy or gross. I even farted
on stage, becoming a caricature of everything ugly
I dreaded inside me. I teased my frizzy hair to make it
even frizzier. I took my cues from Joan Rivers
and Phyllis Diller—On my honeymoon I put on
a peekaboo blouse. My husband peeked and booed.
I tried to repel men as much as possible
with my awesome, non-conforming physicality.
I didn’t care if I embarrassed my family.
I didn’t care anymore about diets or dates.
I ate whole cakes and didn’t even think
about throwing them up. I went to late night
open mics, wisecracking through the jeers and booing
until audiences got used to me. I took their abuse,
gave it right back. I wore down the drunks and soon
they were laughing, even snorting sometimes.
Though still controversial, I was on the cover
of Paper and Ms. while The Golden Girls
made its TV debut. By the time Roseanne Barr
came around, I’d already taken all up the space
in that roly-poly lane. I let her open for me anyway.
At the end of each of my Comedy Central specials,
I would invite her back into the spotlight
and we’d bump our humongous bellies.
Roseanne grew bored. She was a deep thinker,
growing more profound with each gig.
When Jane Austen came back in vogue
with the movies Clueless and Sense and Sensibility,
I started my own production company
and hired so many women—even skinny
pretty comics, ones I never imagined
could break through. My wide ass opened wide
doors for everyone. Finally I had boyfriends,
handsome and loyal and attracted to my big fat
bank account. But by the time Beyoncé reunited
with Destiny’s Child for the Super Bowl halftime,
my overeating and slovenly ways caught up
with me. When I had bypass surgery and lost
two hundred pounds, I knew my career in comedy
was over. Fans called me a traitor and my latest
boyfriend lost interest too—no more drunken parties
and freezers stocked with Haagen-Dazs
and Tombstone pizzas. I had to pivot so I straightened
my hair and changed my name to give myself
a second act. Roseanne had just won the Pulitzer
for her verse. I put my efforts into becoming a minor poet.
 

from In Which
2024 Rattle Chapbook Prize Winner

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Denise Duhamel: “I started writing the poems from In Which after reading Emily Carr’s brilliant essay ‘Another World Is Not Only Possible, She Is on Her Way on a Quiet Day I Can Hear Her Breathing.’ (American Poetry Review, Volume 51, No. 3, May/June 2022) Carr borrows her title from Arundhati Roy, political activist and novelist. In her delightfully unconventional essay, Carr talks about rekindling intuition in poems, offering ‘a welcome antidote to whatever personal hell you, too, are in.’ Carr’s invitation to be unapologetic, even impolite, gave me new ways of entering my narratives. Soon I was imagining I was someone else completely. Or sometimes I looked back at my earlier self, at someone I no longer recognized.”

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December 16, 2024

Chase Twichell

SOON

When I say the word walk, or even spell it,
the dogs leap up with flailing tails.
Since they don’t understand the concept
of “later” or “soon,” I say it only
when I’m almost out the door.
 
Soon there will be no words for my slow
meanders in the woods in search of chanterelles,
while they run miles of scent trails,
nostrils flared, circling back to keep me in their ken.
No whistle even deaf old Nan can hear.
Just ash, scant handful of the world’s one body.
Soon—still in the future, for now.
 

from Rattle #36, Winter 2011
Tribute to Buddhist Poets

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Chase Twichell: “I have a very low tolerance for decoration in poems. And some people love it; they want to read pages and pages of how the everglades look in a storm and so on and so forth. But I increasingly am of the school or the belief that we don’t have very much time and poems should do their work fast and get out.” (web)

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December 15, 2024

Stuart Watson

BIG HEAD

They carried the big head
through the streets, detached
from its neck and its body
but spilling all its evil
everywhere they carried it,
puddles for the people
to splash their happy feet, its jaw
flopping open as they adjusted
the angle of the big head
and its weight, the tongue
lolling out (what tongues do)
and then retracting between
teeth stained brown by too much
smoking or lack of scrubbing
with Ajax like the bottom
of the toilet bowl, people
growing tired of putting up
with the big head one more
second, and falling away
and new people joining
the people working so hard
to keep the big head up above
their own heads, to keep it
where other people could see
what a truly big head it was
and how it was no longer
attached to heart and lungs
and any of the many cruelties
that lived inside what it was.
 

from Poets Respond

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Stuart Watson: “This poem was inspired by the image of joyous citizens of Damascus carrying the severed sculptural head of what I assume was once part of a statue of Bashar al-Assad. Nothing in all the coverage captured for me the essence of the story.”

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December 14, 2024

Jenneva Scholz

THE FAMINE OF LOVE

After his mother forbids him to marry Psyche, Cupid puts down his bow and all living things on earth stop mating.
First the fruit flies fell around the fruit bowl and the air was still,
the figs and apples ripened and then were gone. The end of bees
means the end of plums and roses, the end of rye and amaranth.
Soon, no mice: we noticed their silence after the years of traps
and scratching in the ceilings, no droppings in the flour, no footprints
in the butter. I found an owl dead in a glade. Takes less
time than you might think for horse feed to look like food
if there is no food. There are our orchards, there are
our fields, empty of hum and buzzing, empty of peaches
and wheat. The male swan left the lake, just flew away,
and his mate made widening circles over town, 
honking her grief until we shot her down. 
The goats stripped every bush of leaves but bore no kids,
no cats birthed kittens, no kits for the foxes, no goslings,
no grubs, no nymphs, no infants. My son now prefers the empty 
woods to the dancing girls—it’s true that they’ve grown bony, 
and though I go to watch them they don’t stir me. I’m hungry. 
At the town council we address the issue: how long can we survive
on leaves and boiled bark? Two months, if we eat our seed corn
and slaughter our horses. One month if we save some corn, 
save some horses to try to plant in the spring. My wife
once rode that horse fifty miles just to see me
for an afternoon. Once she rode over a river in winter, 
the ice spackled with rabbit tracks
and filled with unlucky fish, just to marry me. 
Once we made love in the garden, under the bean trellis; 
in our bed we made a child. I make a list 
of her good qualities. I try to find my love for her
in things, wearing the clothes she gave me, reading 
notations she left in my books. Re-reading her letters
I think, I’m so hungry I could let you starve.
It’s hard to know yourself anymore
when you can think a thing like that. 
Some things might outlast this. Tortoises, maybe.
But look at them: each grooved to fit smoothly with the other, 
built to heave those heavy bodies together and lock in. 
See how his belly is arched
to cradle her shell. 
I keep thinking: I don’t need her.
I keep opening the cupboard to find nothing.
 

from Rattle #42, Winter 2013

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Jenneva Scholz: “I teach ceramics, which helps me feel connected to the earth, and write poetry, which helps me feel connected to the sky.”

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December 13, 2024

Lew Watts

ON A TEAR

Lost: one mind. Last seen in childhood. Answers to nobody. Limited vocabulary. If found, please rip out its tongue and return with the last word uttered.
 

 

from Rattle #85, Fall 2024

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Lew Watts: “In my school in Wales, a poem was read aloud each morning before lessons. And I remember clearly being mesmerized by Dylan Thomas’s ‘Fern Hill’ at seven years of age. Nowadays, though the rhythms of ‘Fern Hill’ have stayed with me, I’ve become increasingly drawn to starker prose combined with haiku. I write haibun for its ability to release memories. Sometimes of joy. More often, those buried in the past.”

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December 12, 2024

Craig van Rooyen

READING EXODUS

after Marie Howe

The thing about the Old Testament is that
at least metaphorically
 
God has balls. If Pharaoh can’t make up his mind fast,
he’s looking at a world of hurt:
 
“You don’t think it’s time to let my people go?
Well maybe it’s time for me
 
to open up a whole can of frogs and boils, asshole.”
That’s Yahweh for you.
 
A guy who wears the pants in the family.
Sometimes I fantasize
 
about saying to the woman I married: “Let my
people go,
 
or frogs will multiply in your eight-hundred-dollar
Italian motorcycle boots.”
 
By “my people,” I mean primarily me. But if
history is any lesson,
 
that would only lead to years in the wilderness.
Not to mention
 
an unnecessary sacrifice of children. As a minor prophet once said:
“Wherever you are,
 
there you are”—whether that’s turning circles
in the desert for forty years,
 
or paying a mortgage in the suburbs and making
small talk on date night.
 
Remember the story of the Golden Calf? When all the people
took off their wedding rings,
 
thinking they would get a second chance at love?
They danced and threw their lives
 
into the fire. Look at the poor bastards there around the flames,
faces glowing, while Yahweh gathers himself
 
on the mountain top. They feel the desert on their backs,
they feel the sky is ready to collapse.

Look at them. They’re dancing.
 

from Rattle #37, Summer 2012

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Craig van Rooyen: “My father is a preacher and I grew up strong on words and Southern cooking. I think the old stories in scripture still can give shape to our longings if we let the words live in our imaginations. The ‘I’ in ‘Reading Exodus’ is not autobiographical. I live with my wife of fifteen years, happily married, on the Central Californian coast—maybe not the land of milk and honey, but pretty close.”

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