January 19, 2023

Unsatisfied Externals by J. Stormer, etching of a room in still life in green and yellow, with a square section in black and white suggesting a different time

Image: “Unsatisfied Externals” by J. Stormer. “The Room as We See It” was written by Andrew Payton for Rattle’s Ekphrastic Challenge, December 2022, and selected as the Artist’s Choice. (PDF / JPG)

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Andrew Payton

THE ROOM AS WE SEE IT

In the memory of the room
we find a doorway
to seeing the room as it is,
as we had left it.
 
We find a doorway
framed in revisions,
as we had left it
open to correction.
 
Framed in revisions
we accept what shadows
open to correction
in the light show of sleep.
 
We accept the shadows
outside the photograph.
In the light show of sleep,
sunlight is liberated.
 
Outside the photograph
we dress the room in color.
Sunlight is liberated
through a window opened.
 
We dress the room in color,
in the memory of the room.
Through a window opened
to seeing the room as it is.
 

from Ekphrastic Challenge
December 2022, Artist’s Choice

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Comment from the artist, J. Stormer: “I am astounded by the variety of thoughts and emotions that my print inspired in the poems submitted to this challenge. It was especially interesting to see what details others found compelling. Although there are a few poets and poems I have appreciated over the years, I have never formally studied poetry, or any form of literature. So, my choice is entirely subjective without reference to any criterion other than resonance with my personal and idiosyncratic feelings. All the poems I saw were interesting, and there were several that made choosing a single poem almost impossible. I think poetry is really meant to be heard, so I read the poems aloud to myself, and the way the poems sounded to me was also important in the final choice. This print is unique in my mostly representational body of work. It was inspired by a vague memory of things seen when I was too young (according to the experts) to have memories. Perhaps this was a dream then. The central etching was done first, but did not catch the feeling of the memory as I experienced it. Many months later, experimenting with colographs, I came up with the outer, more abstract part of the image, which to me suggests the dreamlike state. This poem, for me, captures the idea of of things seen with incomplete remembrance and subject to mental revision.”

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January 18, 2023

Penny Harter

ODE TO A BAND-AID

Over the years, how often I have run to your
tin box or cardboard container, searching for
the perfect closure. Some of your kind are big 
enough for a skinned knee; others like the
butterfly can pull together delicate edges, skin
to skin. How frantic we are as we grab which
of you we can find in our cabinet of magic,
then tear the red thread of your wrapper down
your side as if it were a thin seam marked with
blood that you might staunch.

 

Not always welcome, though, is your after-life
discarded on the ballfield dirt, dropped under the
bleachers, or tossed into the waste beside the sick
bed, your stained face open and staring at us
with proof of what is kept inside—blood, pus,
any seepage from your hoped-for repair. Of all
your incarnations I love the butterfly the most,
a winged hinting at the transformation you will
bring to a child’s bloodied brow, or to the pit left
from an excised skin blemish taken for biopsy.

 

Indispensable helper, how carefully I peel off the
protective papers on either side of your sticky
promise to adhere, apply you just so, check you
frequently to be sure you aren’t soaked through
and need replacement. Even your name, band-aid
is so right, your purpose to aid the band of human-
kind, taking the place of dirty strips of cloth ripped
off a sleeve on the battlefield, or a roll of filmy
gauze too soon unraveling, lacking the glue that
binds you to our flesh, dear band-aid, little friend.
 

from Rattle #78, Winter 2022

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Penny Harter: “After a pandemic year of writing frequent poems focused on offering hope to myself and others, I gathered those poems into a forthcoming collection. For some weeks after that, I stopped writing, but now it’s spring, I’m celebrating having gotten the Covid vaccine, and it’s time to move on into new work. The older I get, the more I realize we are a sum of all our memories, both easily accessed and well buried. In different ways, I feel these newer poems are simultaneously visiting both past and present.” (web)

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January 17, 2023

Glenn McKee

LESTER’S CALLING

In the “Hey, You There!” of the moment
Lester thought it was the Lord calling.
He turned, looked, saw nothing human,
but there sprawled a pig in the gutter
moaning in a language Lester didn’t
understand but could speak if spoken
to by a friendly pig. This one wasn’t
first-order friendly, sick as it looked,
pig-gibberish erupting like weight-
lifter’s grunts from its fat-fortified
throat, nostrils dilated as if searching
for solace in barren underbrush, tail
a twisted story telling nothing except
confusion and spiraling morbidity.

Lester at last broke his verbal silence
with words of assurance directed into
the gutter, their demeanor cloaked in
the modesty of a mare breaking wind
after overindulging in bitter oats. He
then paused at the gate of his mission,
unlatched society’s scruples, finally
kneeling beside the pig suffering deep
in its own solitude and began soothing
the victim’s receding brow with caution.

This action caused the pig to roll over,
not unlike a dog asked to play dead or
a lap cat wanting its stomach rubbed.
Lester promptly responded, providing
solace where the pig indicated its pain
made a home. At that moment Lester’s
life changed for the better even though
he didn’t know it. All Lester knew as
he knelt was his love for this poor pig.

from Rattle #19, Summer 2003

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Glenn McKee: “I suffer from a 60-year-old habit of tearing poetry off my life. Not many pages of my life remain, and those that do hang on like surgical tape plastered on a hairy body. Nevertheless, I intend to write myself out of life.”

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January 16, 2023

Stephanie H. Fallon

INFIDEL

When your friend breaks up his marriage
it hits your own like aftershocks, an affair
the kind of coastal earthquake that triggers
tsunamis, sending waves to crash all the way 
across the ocean to another country, another 
continent, another woman, to you.   

 

To be a feminist in this scenario, I can’t drag
the other woman like I’d like to, but I do a deep
dive of her Instagram anyway, sneering at her 
endless videos singing and playing guitar, 
the cheap floral dresses billowing on beaches, 
her bio with some precious reference to islands

 

and mainlands framed by too many emojis. 
She uses hashtags like #fallfashion and #bookstagram.
She’s posted a photo with her husband, dressed
for Easter at their church, accepting compliments
about them as a couple in the comments. That night, 
we learn this woman has been fucking our friend 

 

for a third of his marriage. That night, we sit on the phone 
while his wife drives until she runs out of gas, stranded 
after midnight on the highway. That night, we look at each
other while she tells us about the money, the confrontation,
how, in a moment of panic, she hit him across the face 
with his phone, fending him off. “You better be careful,”

 

he said, chillingly composed. “It wouldn’t look good
for you if I had to call the police.” I try to remember why
I thought he was a good person—did someone tell
me that? Was it my husband, who introduced us all those
years ago? Was it in actual words, or just the way 
I noticed my husband light up around him, enriched 

 

and full of faith? I think of the way he looked 
when we found out—not just deflation, not just sadness, 
but the kind of grief that confirms your deepest fear:
that all the things you insisted on believing in—that dear
and precious hope, that doubtful, tender thing—
were never actually there after all. 
 

from Rattle #78, Winter 2022

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Stephanie H. Fallon: “The way we tell love stories are too often focused on the early, personal stages: coming-of-age, sexual awakenings, first heartbreaks. We are trained to think of love in the first person singular, and that the story ends with the wedding. So it comes as a shock how deeply we can believe in the love stories of others—our family and friends, the people we hold most dear. This poem is about the faith we build through our promises to each other, a reminder that the vows we make root into each other, beyond just a partner, beyond even ourselves.” (web)

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January 15, 2023

Angela Janda

BY LUCK ALONE HE IS HERE

One morning last summer while I was sleeping
my three- and five-year-old left out the front door
and walked toward the park, up one side street
and across another, along the sidewalk
of Comanche Avenue where cars go 40, 45
in two lanes an arm’s length from the curb.
Someone saw them and, I suppose, realized
the not-quite-right of it: small humans out alone
at 6 a.m. I didn’t know they were gone until
one returned and woke me and brought me
to the courtyard where I found two pressed-lip
strangers with his brother. Shortly after, at a public
pool, the older one had to be lifted up from
underwater by his armpits by a lifeguard after
slipping from the end of a slide into a current
that kept him down. A tangle of body held
in a blanket of blue. The expectation that he
would surface. The realization that he would not.
My distance from him. A boy’s body at the mercy
of the flood. I’d rolled over and shut my eyes;
it was me who’d encouraged him to slide. Did I
know? Should I have known? The whistle.
The cold water of the question.
 

from Poets Respond
January 15, 2023

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Angela Janda: “Kyle Doan, 5, was swept away from his mother into California floodwaters on Monday. He has not been found. It is difficult to speak to such a tragedy—the boy was here, and now he is not here. Everyone made decisions with the best information they had. He was a kindergartener. Four foot, 52-pounds. Black puffer jacket. I dropped my 48-pound kindergartener in his green puffer jacket at the school playground this morning. The click of the car seat belt. Every effort we made to let them grow and keep them safe. This poem speaks to the terrible second-guessing; could I have done better? Was it enough? I have experienced enough near-misses as a mother to know the thin distance between here and out of reach.” (web)

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January 14, 2023

Elizabeth Klise von Zerneck

FREEDOM

Haight Street

The realtor claimed the flat was lived in once
by Janis Joplin, a quite common claim,

we later learned. The tactic worked on us.
We learned to overlook—that hint of fame!—

the smell of gas, an awkward floor plan, soot
that never scoured. We dwelled not there but on

our plum address and, when fall came, we bought
dark Goodwill coats, the nights much colder than

we had foreseen. Through that long year, we read
Jacques Derrida, and smoked, and grew fresh thyme

on the one sill with light. We baked wheat bread—
well, one loaf anyway—and drank red wine,

and each day died a bit—twenty, confused—
two other words for nothing left to lose.

from Rattle #32, Winter 2009
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Elizabeth Klise von Zerneck: “I used to write fiction, and the first line of this poem was one I had in my head for years as the first sentence of a story. Nothing came of it. When I started to write poetry, I recalled the line—iambic, after all—and the poem followed quickly, almost as if it wrote itself. It knew what it wanted to be more than I did.”

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January 13, 2023

Anna M. Evans

STATE OF GRACE

for DF … and Wisconsin

I. Green Lake

 

Even the clouds look different, more defined.
The lake is silver, ripples flash like teal
minnows before the bow; the wake, behind
is jubilantly frothy. This is real.
You tell me stories of your lake-life youth.
They’re tinged with silver too and glow with joy.
The small boat’s engine counters: this is truth.
You tell me how you met your man, a boy
who made you laugh at parties. This is breath.
A light wind makes a halo of your hair.
I feel at ease with, although far from death,
And take a deep gulp in of summer air
to ask the question that this day makes clear:
would I be you if I had grown up here?

 

 

II. Interstate 41

 

Would I be you if I had grown up here—
this land of cloistered dairy cows and lakes,
straight roads that narrow till they disappear,
skirted by fields of corn? For argument’s sake,
the answer’s no, but maybe it’s a yes.
Aren’t we all products of our circumstances?
My English parents did, I must confess,
endow me with a decent set of chances
then add a lust to see and know and do
more than they did, which hurled me overseas,
led me to the place where I met you
and brought me to your state. This notion frees
me of the envy, loosens up the guilt.
Each of us owns the hard-won world she’s built.

 

 

III. Oshkosh I

 

Each of us owns the hard-won world she’s built.
Your house a twisted mirror of my own—
slate-surfaced tables, lots of wood, no gilt—
not perfect, but in every sense a home.
You have a tomcat who prowls countertops,
a dog who rests her muzzle on my knee.
We sit on your deck in tee shirts, shorts, flip flops.
I marvel at how much you are like me.
Except …
… out here, you always watch Fox News
and like Oshkosh, your vote is ruby red
while I’m a sworn-in member of the blues.
I quiet the stubborn voice inside my head
that says we can’t be friends. I will not hear,
won’t be constrained behind a wall of fear.

 

 

IV. Lake Butte des Morts

 

I won’t be constrained behind a wall of fear
and yet the rope is slithering from my grip.
You yell at your husband, but he doesn’t hear.
Keen to impress, I hold on till I slip.
Baptized in the shallow water of the lake,
I scramble up, reborn. We shake with laughter.
Whatever this friendship is, it isn’t fake.
I shed my sodden clothes, know each time after
that wearing them will summon up this day
and how my accent, too, began to slide
into the drawn-out O, the Wisconsin A.
I’m holding on now, in it for the ride.
The boat speeds from the boat launch and its silt.
I shape my mouth—my new Midwestern lilt.

 

 

V. Dockside Tavern

 

I shape my mouth around the Midwest lilt,
self-conscious in a bikini at the bar—
my clothes too wet to wear since I got spilled—
and order lunch to go. We’re heading far
across the lake to somewhere you call Stretches.
I have no data I can use to draw
comparisons. My overcharged brain sketches
and then discards ideas. When we unmoor
I try to relax, and suddenly I do,
my tense muscles uncoiling like a rope.
The sun casts blessings from a sky so blue
all apprehension vanishes in hope
a body can surrender like a voice.
Remember that contentment is a choice.

 

 

VI. Oshkosh II

 

Remember that contentment’s about choices.
The day before, we’d sat upon your bed
and shared our girlhood secrets in low voices,
a frank and warm exchange, which somehow led
to how the Supreme Court had undone Roe.
You didn’t want your state to be that way,
but when I tried to tell you how to show
your disapproval, you went on to say
you couldn’t vote for Democrats—not ever—
because we’re evil, arm around my shoulder.
I let it hurt, but couldn’t let it sever
the bonds we share or turn our friendship colder.
You cannot understand what you don’t see.
I have no way to make you think like me.

 

 

VII. Lake Winnebago I

 

I have no way to make you think like me,
but just for now, we’re visibly in sync,
sitting up front like sisters, knee to knee.
Your husband, steering, throws us a fond wink
then opens up the throttle to full force,
and now the boat is bouncing through the wake
of one in front as he sets a direct course
to our destination. This is a vast lake
to me, accustomed to the Jersey shore.
This body of water somehow dwarfs the ocean,
lacking the waves that find a sandy floor.
I am so thrilled to yield to the motion,
the motor thrumming like an inner voice 
in a rhythm that insists we all rejoice.

 

 

VIII. Stretches I

 

In a rhythm that insists we all rejoice
the boat converges on our destination.
I look around. It’s as if, with one voice
Oshkosh’s boat-owning population
has named this sandbar as the place to meet—
pontoons and motor cruisers, large and small
are roped in lines together, like a fleet
of sailing partygoers. Your friends call
and we tie up then anchor next to them.
Men stand in waist-deep water, beers in hand,
and women lounge on swim decks. You say, Come!
and help me lower myself onto the sand.
The opaque water’s warmer than the sea.
You’re showing me your life. It’s heavenly.

 

 

IX. Dublin’s

 

You’re showing me your life. It’s heavenly,
like how we visited the Irish bar
where your son cooks. You were so proud of me—
your friend, the poet—as if I were a star.
They asked me for a haiku, which I wrote
and after that, my glass was always full.
Why should it matter to me how you vote?
An afternoon with you is never dull.
It was a relief, not to have to think,
to sing the lyrics to an Irish song,
pull the tabs off lottery cards, and drink,
forget the ways the country’s going wrong,
put any hint of conflict out of mind,
surrender to the moment and be kind.

 

 

X. Fox River Brewery

 

Surrender to the moment and be kind,
which means that when you’re hungry you should eat
and tip well. I was in the frame of mind
to wear a sundress, something loose and sweet,
so we went home, got changed, and did our hair,
then found a table outside by the dock,
took pictures perched upon a huge lawn chair
and watched the sunset. The relentless clock
had never been so silent. Was it the band?
The lively music somehow soothed my soul.
Or was it that a day could be unplanned
and still be perfect? I felt peaceful, whole.
Of course, the salmon tacos were sublime.
It was a day outside of rules and time.

 

 

XI. Oshkosh III

 

It was a day outside of rules and time.
We swayed into your house, a little drunk,
and then we called as one, partners in crime
for eighties music—indie rock, not punk,
and danced barefoot and wild like maniacs—
Blondie, The Smiths, Aha, Kate Bush, The Cure
and Frankie Goes to Hollywood’s “Relax”
while belting out the words we knew. I’m sure
your husband thought that we were both insane
but still played barkeep, audience, DJ
until our energy began to wane
and then we put our teenage years away
amazed how much our music tastes aligned.
You were the friend I’d always longed to find.

 

 

XII. Stretches II

 

You are the friend I always longed to find.
We need sunscreen, you say, then spray it on
my skin, tan lines already well-defined.
I slide back in the water, but you yawn
and tell me that you’re going to take a nap.
I dunk myself then swim around the boats,
a slow and lazy breaststroke. Every lap
your husband checks I’m still okay….Your votes
seem so incongruous, as if a song
I loved turned out to have satanic meaning—
how can I feel so comfortable, belong
with people whose beliefs are so right-leaning?
You break the structure of my paradigm.
Except for this one dissonance, we rhyme.

 

 

XIII. Lake Winnebago II

 

Except for that one dissonance, we rhyme. 
On the way back, your husband stops the boat
in the middle of the lake, because it’s time
to watch the sun go down. We bob and float
as the sky turns pink, painted with copper streaks
reflecting in the lake as burnished gold.
I haven’t felt this calm inside for weeks.
The beauty of it makes me feel less old
and that all things are possible. I didn’t know
how much I’d love Wisconsin till I came,
how hard it would be then to let it go,
and that, back home, I’d never be the same,
shaken forever from complacency,
because you are so like, yet unlike me. 

 

 

XIV. New Jersey

 

Because you are so like, yet unlike me
I’ve gifted you an audiobook I heard
on motherhood and choice. It’s not a plea
for change, but if there’s power in a word
maybe these ones will have some pull on you.
I’ve never thought the world was black and white,
so why accept it must be red and blue?
I’ve changed my desktop image to the lake
at sunset so I never will forget
the harmony. I think for both our sake
we always should be friends. I’m in your debt
because you and Wisconsin made me see
there’s hope for this sweet land of liberty.

 

 

XV.

 

Would I be you if I had grown up here?
Each of us owns the hard-won world she’s built,
won’t be constrained behind a wall of fear.
I tried to shape my mouth around the lilt,
remember that contentment is a choice,
and I’d no way to make you think like me.
In a rhythm that insisted I rejoice
you showed me how you live. It’s heavenly—
surrender to the moment and be kind.
And all these days were outside rules and time.
You are the friend I’d always longed to find.
Except for one big dissonance, we rhyme.
Is there—because you’re like, yet unlike me—
some hope for this sweet land of liberty?
 

from Rattle #78, Winter 2022

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Anna M. Evans: “Recent polls suggest that about two thirds of Democrats do not have Republican friends. Bucking this trend, I spent five summer days in Oshkosh, Wisconsin, visiting a woman I first met outside of both our home states, and it was blissful, even though our political views are complete opposites. Poetry can be used to explore such large, complex subjects, and because form needs to match content, this subject called for a heroic crown of sonnets. I have been advised that some people on my side of the aisle may object to the congeniality of my poem, and that is, of course, part of the point.” (web)

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