“Praise Dance” by Miracle Thornton

Miracle Thornton

PRAISE DANCE

I.
 
i close my legs. i’m starting to smell
like a woman and the other girls can tell.
 
they spread wide and bend forward,
breathe giggles into the floor. clean
 
like new soap, talking in clicks about pastor’s
son—i am in love—about the way he feels.
 
they quip about how he kissed sharp
like a punishment in the back room off
 
the narthex. i felt him with my foot, says an usher’s
daughter and other girls shiver in her pride.
 
Sister comes to open me up and my jealousy
reeks like cabbage: pungent my yielding body.
 
 
II.
 
we balance on the ball, my ankles spurred out
and trembling. the girls step on my feet to make
 
my arch collapse. they don’t ask me where
it hurts and i don’t bother to tell them.
 
take me to the king and we carve lazily for Him,
our palms drawn upward, so open
 
i can’t breathe. this practice, pushing good
from the ground to the apex to the pews.
 
afterward, the girls dance for the boys straight out
of bible study. the girls ripple, laughs tart greens,
 
dressed still in paneled white tunics slick
over their curves. one of the boys begins
 
to beat on the altar a rhythm that makes me want
to whine into my seat. the girls’ hips clock against
 
one another. the pastor’s son humors a pew stain.
the others hooting, enraptured; blanched, i gnaw.
 
 
III.
 
on stage, Sister is violent for the Lord. fruit
washed in vinegar, she’s bitter white spit
 
down the apron. i don’t mistake her passion
for devotion. she’s giving it to the ushers
 
shaking wicker hats full of change, their gloves
browned at the tips. the elders with butterscotch
 
bulged cheeks clap fans against shiny
bad-ass boy heads, hallelujah
 
from the chest. fathers bop babies off knees
and my mother ducks her head in her purse,
 
chewing red vines and sucking her teeth. seen
from our pristine line of girls, i hide my head
 
in the thicket of hair gifted to the tallest of us.
i marvel behind the black halo at Sister’s war
 
of limbs until she comes
to a halt. the flock erupts.
 
i have to breathe in.
 

from Plucked
2023 Rattle Chapbook Prize Winner

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Miracle Thornton: “When I encountered the Aesop fable, the moral of the story—an individual caught between pride and loyalty—immediately resonated with me. Growing up, I always felt pulled between the environment of my home and my hometown. It was difficult to understand who I was when it changed depending on the room, depending on whomever else occupied the space. The bird was a powerful conduit and spoke to the illusive aspects of my ever-evolving sense of self.”

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