October 13, 2017That Summer
That summer we shared a motorcycle
and a girlfriend and drank your pop’s
booze and stayed out all night on the beach.
You had a mean streak and a bad temper—
you might still, wherever you are; nobody
liked your foul mouth or the way you sneered,
as if the world had done something awful,
which it had, but not to you, not at sixteen.
Your brother was worse, Eddie the Creep,
a cheap punk who spit on my father’s roses—
Christ, I thought my old man would kill him,
but he was scared of Eddie, “that psycho.”
And your mother was a floozy,
“cheap,” though she drove a Cadillac
and wore high heels to the A&P;
you’ll remember when she kissed me
right on the mouth, stuck her tongue
in my ear and her hand … forget it.
And your father, the judge, a crook,
on the take, a fat man in seersucker
who swilled screwdrivers at breakfast,
and kept a lady friend installed at the
Shore Motel, Room Six, top floor, too
close to the highway, remember?
You’d fight with the judge over Mom,
sticking up for your mother, loyalty
being your only virtue. Otherwise,
I’m sorry to say it, you were a loser.
But on a day like today—hot and dusty—
a miserable day good for nothing at all,
it’s you I remember, and no one else.
from #56 - Summer 2017