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      July 13, 2016To the Frustrated Mother in Starbucks with Her Three-Year-Old SonChanel Brenner

      Don’t worry, this will end.
       
      One day, he will stop hitting you
      when he’s mad, his hands swatting
      at your face like a short-circuited robot.
      One day, he will stop throwing himself
      on the pale cement
      and thrashing his head like a punk rocker
      when you tell him, No.
      Someday, he will even stop running out the door
      every time he sees a pigeon
      bobbing its mangy head down the sidewalk,
      leaving you to spill your coffee
      and chase after him down the street,
      grabbing his shirt
      just before he steps
      into moving traffic.
      You probably won’t notice that he’s stopped.
      You’ll be too busy helping him trace
      his upper-case letters,
      playing game after game of Roshambo,
      and listening to his knock-knock jokes.
      You’ll be too busy answering his questions,
      Mommy, Can I tell you something?
      Mommy, Can I have gummy bears?
      Mommy, Who was the first person on earth?
      You probably won’t remember
      how you thought that it would be easier
      when he turned three, but it wasn’t.
      Why do they call it the terrible twos?
      You probably won’t remember
      until you see another mother struggling
      with her three-year-old son,
      her jaw tense, her hand clutching
      his arm too tight as he grabs
      her splintering blonde hair in his
      freakishly strong fist
      and pulls. Then you will remember
      how you wanted to escape
      and how you felt like it would never end.
      By then, your son will be standing still
      in line beside you, ordering an Iced Caramel Macchiato
      his large hands hanging at his sides.
      Only now you will remember
      him small in your lap,
      his hand tight around your finger,
      the other one pointing at a balloon,
      Mommy, Boom!

      from #52 - Summer 2016

      Chanel Brenner

      When my older son, Riley, died at age six from a brain AVM hemorrhage, writing poetry and the support of the Los Angeles Poets and Writers Collective helped me survive. I am lucky to live in L.A. among so many brilliant and openhearted poets. Last 4th of July at a parade, I saw a mom and her three-year-old son who reminded me of what it was like when Riley was three. This poem came out of wanting to reach out to her and other mothers about that turbulent age and the unwanted feelings that can surface.”