July 2, 2014Waiting
I knew you wouldn’t come.
It was four in the afternoon.
An elm was there. It looked
like eternity. There’s
no infidelity, but slitting open
letters with the opener’s like a stab
from another age of virtue.
How do elms smell?
They’re sickly.
Eternity dies slowly
of a stealthy sickness.
I’ll never see
what you’re doing now.
Maybe the telephone’s ringing
in your room now
four in the afternoon.
A female voice is severe,
says: wrong number.
The elm smells of sickness.
In the grass gone to seed underneath
a dragonfly’s still, looks at me
to the end of my certainty,
when I don’t add up the numbers
while waiting: I know,
my breath was the quick breath
of a child eavesdropping.
Mechanically I unbutton
my jacket button
and button it again.
I’m getting ready
for something or other.
—translated from the German by Stuart Friebert with permission of Suhrkamp Verlag/Berlin
from #42 - Winter 2013