December 2, 2022Widow Water
All summer, garden snakes slithered in and out
of her grief. Now she has Canada geese to count,
as they angle south for the season. The lake
is empty of wings, reminding her how ice first
honors edges, how inky skies honor where
he drowned. At night, she makes and unmakes
the bed but never sleeps in it. By day, the leaves
don’t fall fast enough so she walks under
the maple, banging branches with a rake. Gloves?
She lost them weeks ago during a midnight
ramble, so now she wears his hunting socks
on her hands, wool with red stripes. She saves
his whiskers in a shaving mug, clipped fingernails
rolled up in an old bra, little fixes that fix
nothing. She used to scatter mums on waves
but grew tired of watching them serenely float.
Now she lobs one of his hammers or a handful
of screws, each splash a little gulp, a thank you.
On the couch tonight she’ll light his last cigarette
and let it smolder down to ash while she eats
a pomegranate, jewel by bleeding jewel, smoke
tonguing the wall like a spirit seeking release.
from #77 - Fall 2022