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      November 30, 2016Allegheny Valley, Exit 48Meghan Tutolo

      I wonder if it matters
      to the truck driver on the shoulder
      opening a map like wings spread
      under a Mets hat, a cigarette
      all Turnpike in this shutterspeed
      of drive-by, this town and how
      everyone in it will always be
      drowned out.
      When I’m asked where I’m from
      I imagine my dad’s hands
      thick and greased, shifting under
      a now-dead city brilliant
      with only the beacon of barges
      silent and tracing the river,
      how we’re all asleep there
      in that boxy run-off of industry
      rotting along the Allegheny—
      aluminum and steel
      bullets and body armor,
      dreaming in all that heavy metal
      and burnt oranges.
      I don’t say any of that.
      Because we’re somehow
      living that sadness, still cracked
      as concrete, tall as mortar cliffs
      and mountains we cut into
      for dollar stores, drive-thrus
      thinking we escaped unscathed
      in Subarus and next-door
      suburbs burning Yankee candles
      burning leaves in lawn bags and
      old tax returns, newspapers
      burning up.
      Solemn as smoke stacks,
      the kids from New Kensington
      are stuck to each other, licked
      between hamburger wrappers
      and a community college defiance
      telling people we matter
      having to prove it
      elbows on counters and all that
      downhill running, arms open
      unafraid, but afraid
      to go home.

      from #53 - Fall 2016

      Meghan Tutolo

      “How does being an adjunct affect my work? Hmm … there’s a wild sort of uncertainty I had to lean to in the adjunct trade. I have a day job, you know, but my night comp classes have taught me to be more confident in myself and what I do, no matter what I do. And that passion works. No, this isn’t sap. I actually have to fake confidence on a weekly basis, so my writing has gotten a little bolder too. Believing in oneself is the key to unlocking potential. Cliché blah, blah, blah. True story, though. Oh and I bring them candy. Kit Kats are a hit.”