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      February 4, 2025Poem in Search of a HorseHayden Saunier

      Time is not reading the poem as you
      read the poem, but rest assured he’s slipped
      inside the room in his soft, polished shoes,
      with his little cough, his bowler hat in hand,
      so sorry to disturb. It isn’t that he doesn’t like
      to read, he loves to lean across your shoulder,
      let you feel his breath, a delicate subzero
      on your neck, but he’s impatient with anything
      but haiku. Ignore him. He’ll pretend
      he doesn’t care, proceed to wind the clocks
      with tiny keys or stretch out on a sofa, tap
      a tree branch on a pane and wait you out.
      Meanwhile, the poem persists in its solitary
      business of resisting being made, trying
      the usual tactics: silence, tantrum, argument
      over rules of play until the stuck mind panics,
      a tarantula in hot tar, shouts words out
      like charades: moon! anapest! plumage! boat!
      desperate to drown out that silence accompanying
      the figure in the well-cut suit who’s polishing
      the gold case of his pocket watch, remarking
      how words pile up like big rigs on a fogged-in
      freeway: apple! rainfall! pasture! bell! and even
      when the poem finds some purchase, scrambles
      up a narrow footpath through a field and stands
      inside a grassy insect buzz, holding out
      a shaky palm of sugar to conjure up a horse,
      a distant train will whistle, spooking anything
      half wild. You’re back exactly where you started.
      Cough-cough. Soft shoes. Tick-tock. No horse.

      from #31 - Summer 2009

      Hayden Saunier

      “I had lost my bearings inside the poem I was working on and needed something to power and ground it, but I’d made too big a mess. I’d ruined it. So I let the search take over. The tarantula image is an echo from a poem called ‘Fence’ by Janet Poland and became an apt figure for the mucked, grasping mind.”